my personal miracle

warning! this post is completely full of imranisme, and you still have time to close this window tab and browse through something else on the web. thank you. oh, you, yes you imran, would have to read this.i know you would somehow ;)
this post is written in one language just for you, since u always complained how i like to mix the languages.hee~

finally i met you! after a long week where time flew so slowly and the days were so boring and somehow my phone was so quiet that one week, i thought it had gone mute. one hard week. luckily budak was there to comfort me and accompany me while you were gone. thank you again for giving budak to me. =) as i told you, it might be 7 days for you but for me it had been at least 9500 suffering minutes for me. this too, minus 580 minutes when you texted me on wednesday when you came back from singapore, and thursday afternoon when you were leaving again for singapore; again. that too were only short messages and didn't last long.




the first time you went away, i told my heart to be patient, and it worked somehow. maybe it was because we had a proper goodbye the previous night when we talked on the phone, and we texted along your way to singapore while you were in the train. so, there was proper goodbye and proper reminders for the next two days. i was glad and i waited calmly for you to come home. when you came back that tuesday night and texted me, i literally jumped here and there around the house as i was so happy, and when you called me, it felt as though it was the first time you called and i was somehow speechless and you also noticed that, didn't you? *blush. i can't help it, i missed you so much and a day without your good morning, good night and i miss you messages just can't ease my heart. habits i guess. eventhough the line was terrible and we talked only for a while because your phone ran out of battery, i still can sleep well that night, hugging budak. =)


then the next day u woke up so late but i knew you were tired due to that long journey home. we talked on the phone again when i arrived at terengganu, and we talked for hours and surprisingly it felt like only 5 minutes! that night we discussed on something that i felt was important to be discussed at that time, and your responses made my day. thank you baby for making me happy and you managed to make me feel secured, like you always do, and the answers were the same everytime. =) thank you dear.. i really2 appreciate what you feel towards me. you know i mean that, it goes without saying.


then came along thursday. we said hye quite late, that was while you were on your way to singapore again with your family, and my family and i were on the way back to kuantan. our messages were short and seemed like there were nothing much to talk about, maybe it was because both of us were tired, sitting in the car for a long time, in a long journey. you arrived there around 7pm and you sent a goodbye message. i replied quite late but still i hope you will get it, i sent reminders for the coming 4 days. to make things worse, there were no delivery messages because the next days would be christmas and the line then was busy. at that point of time i really hoped that i could call you and say porper goodbye, but i guess luck was not on my side then. there was a mixture of feelings; frustrated, sad, lonely. indeed baby, that was what i felt.




next two days, which was saturday, i was so shocked to receive that good morning message from you, and my heart started to beat faster, hoping that you are home. when you told me you were having breakfast in johor and will be back on sunday, i told myself to be thankful. thank you again baby for making me happy that day. you know how much i missed you dear.




the day i waited for finally arrived, for all i know, it was already sunday. =) that late afternoon you told me that you were coming back, and i got all excited. thank god, you are coming home! *yeay. another long journey on the road, i prayed and prayed for you and your family's safety. i was really tired, and went to bed quite early. woke up at around 3am and missing you like crazy.




this morning i got all excited to see you after class, and seeing you after a long time really make my heart jump and beat faster and slower at the same time. yes, only you can make me feel that way. thank you thank you thank you. =) i had fun today. call me greedy, but somehow spending time with you today is still not enough to make up that 1 week i suffered without you. whatever feelings that i felt that 1 week, i'm sure you feel the same way too.

p/s: baby, thanks for letting me experience the kind of love that people freely die for.
i know our relationship is still new, and god willing we'll try to keep this relationship the longest it can be okay?
i love you.

yours,




.:: ME ::.