senyum (^_^)

YEAY TOMORROW MAMA AND AIMAN AND NINA WILL COME TO SENTUL..DA BAGITAHU ABG, MIN NAK BALIK SENTUL HARI JUMAAT MALAM!!

CAN'T WAIT!!!
HUHU...RINDU SANGAT2 KAT NINA...




LOVE YOU BABY,
YASMIN

i wish! i wish!

i wish i still am the girl i was 13 years ago...

tak payah nak fikir mcm2 benda yg berlaku kat sekeliling nih. tak fikir langsung about anyting. ok maybe about what i will eat everyday,tapi definately itu saja. and if tak dapat jawab, people will just let it be and let me live and saye takkan dibebankan dengan semua questions yg org tanye.
if only. *sigh.

saye jarang rimas dengan org2 yg saye suka dan enjoy being with them, tapi when i say SAYA RIMAS, i REALLY99 mean it! so, please la..please...

"yasmin, u kat mana? dengan siape? buat ape?"

i know sometimes people ask because they care.tapi bayangkan, out of sudden, tak penah2 nak tanye all these to me selalu, tetibe je berubah (for whatever reasons pun i dono lah) and merimaskan saye with semua nih. ok, fine, i tried to be reasonable.

"oh hye -whoever-..i kat -wherever- ni tgh -whatever- dengan -whoever-..
kenape ye? =)"

replied dengan sangat bona fide dan put aside everything in my wild thoughts because i dont want to sakitkan hati anyone. alik alik saye yg sakit hati. *sigh lagi. ok, almost everytime i have to act stupid, act as if im cool with everything.act as if i dont know anything, just to jaga hati org yg kita sayang and care for. but somehow.it all begins lagi.



asking about my whereabouts just to make sure instinct dia betul.
that i la the watak antagonis in this drama.
yelah, for ur satisfaction, IM SORRY! DAH? CUKUP?? *sigh and sigh and sigh.



ape ni, who are we kidding with? mcm budak2..if u dont like something, come to my face and say it lah.i respect u kan so pls la jangan tear that respect, or else i have to build walls between us.a thick one.very thick.i dont want that..and sadly, i dont know if u think like me. *hurt.



saye tahu i can be emotional at times.tapi mcm da penat sikit nak layan kerenah mereka2 yg tak faham2.yg nak get things their way. yg nak see things go as what they believe it will be. nak tunjuk baik so that saye nampak tak baik.haih what la...and so happens that saye sangat respect dia dan sayang dan suka berkwn dan tak pernah fikir buruk pasal dia.




and...end up org yg i dont use to be sangat baik pulak yg ade for me to watch my back. to abg n adik and closest frens, korang jelah i turn to. thanx sebab menjadi protective towards me, i understand that its for kebaikan saye jugak. its really bad to say bad things about people tapi i have to share it jugak eventhough i tried not to. somehow this tense mcm da menjadi sangat banyak and hard to handle. Ya Allah please give me strength.



im tired


tired of being annoyed.tired of giving fake smiles even when i cant afford to smile.

"min, ur smile da lain.is everything ok?"



*to these people yg sedar of this thing, SAYE SANGAT SAYANG KAMU!! thanx for noticing!



hmm..tense bangun cepat utk pegi kelas, tense projek yg baru nak gerak, tense kelas admin and land yg mcm ta faham pape, tense gerun every weekends sebab ade kelas datin every monday, tense tutorial yg semakin berlambak, tense kwn2 yg da jadi pelik tak pasal2...



dah lah.cukup la tuh..i dont need anything more.dugaan betul masuk 2nd year nih.



to you, thanx for being there for me with all those encouragements yet cliche advices u gave me. you think im strong to face all these, i assure you, im not.please don't leave me.



to awk yg really have problem with me, please come and talk to me, im waiting patiently. knowing u, i know its not easy for u. tapi we'll sort it out.



to kamu yg can't stop making stories, please stop.put urself in my shoes and ponder sekejap. rasenye saye tak pernah kacau hidup awk.



to anda yg mmg mcm tak amik tahu tapi still stalk org, i have moved on an i will be thankful if u move on too.



-sorry taw if ade any of my words which might hurt anyone.you know i care-


Love,
saye

-----when Yasmin starts to write-----

tepuk tangan dengan happy pastu tetibe stop kejap dan berfikir...

Facts about me...

1. In my family, only my name starts with the letter Y, while the rest of my sibling's names starts with the letter A. I used to think that I was adopted. =p lolz~

2. The only time that I can be really quiet is when I'm sleeping. =p That too, depends on whether I'm having a good sleep or not..

3. I like to drive around, or simply plot myself in front of the television, watching hindi movies especially with SHAHRUKH KHAN *melts!!! in it to release stress..

4. I eat chocolate almost everyday, and would not feel bad about it. I know its not good but...its something that I like to have everyday, and I dont mind not eating other food..

5. I am really obsessed with SHAHRUKH KHAN..i memorise all the songs which he 'sings' in all his movies (I really do) and when I hear a new hindi song, I can guess (correctly) who acts in that new movie, eventhogh I have not watched it yet. Because to me, the original singers can make his voice sounds like the actors in the movie.. -to identify, u really have to listen to many songs and really be familiar on how the original singers sing...lots of practice is required leyh- =j

6. I really love ice-cream...but there's an exeption..if I eat ice-cream on a stick, I will not eat the part that touches the stick..eeeiiiwwww....tastes like wood!! and I cant stand to imagine the yuckiness and numbness of biting soap.haha.. beng.. =p

7. Im a really loyal diary writer...well...loyal does not mean to write everyday, but Im a consistant writer.

8. I learn to understand and speak hindi from movies, and I can pronounce hindi words correctly when singing songs, and can detect if the wordings that i see in the lyrics are not correct.. =)

9. Since high school, if im bored in the class, i'll write names, draw pictures of crabs, birds, rabbits and sometimes flowers on my note..just to make myself happy..indirectly, it helps me to remember where to refer to when im searching for a particular information. =)

10. I really LOVE children. I had a dream of opening my own childcare centre, but the children must be only at the age of 4-6...err..and the girls have long hair..and the uniform must be in pink for girls and white for boys. fullstop.no further explaination.haha..

11. I like to give presents to my friends when I feel like giving. So...pray hard, people!~ =p

12. I stand on what I believe in, and no matter how persuasive you are, its really hard to change my stand. But, if i know that im wrong, i'll never hesitate to change for good. =)

13. Im a people's person. When I meet a new group of people, I can just sit with them, and the next thing you know, we'll talk and laugh as though we had known each other for years. =j

14. I like to laugh..my friends always say that my laugh is contagious..hehe. ;p

15. I had two silver rings with my name on it. But now only one is left, because I gave the other away.you can see me wearing this particular ring on the middle finger on my left hand..always..

16. One of my best friend's name is also Yasmin. Yasmin Ibrahim. =)

17. When I talk, I tend to have hand movements. lolz!~ semangat je bercerita..haha..

18. In my messages, for smileys, instead of =), i'll type this =j because I think this smiley is cuter because it has a dimple on it's left cheek..errr...ade cheek ke?? haha...

19. When i text my friends, I like to show expression by having a directory.haha..pelik kan? like this:

"how r u? -smiling and batting eyelashes-" haha..ask my friends and u'll know its true. =D

20. The number that I like is 8, as i think, with our imagination, we can make other numbers from it. Its...hmm...flexible. -haih..too much imagination dy- =p

21. I name my stuffs that I love. For instance, my teddy's name is PINKY, I call my laptop ANNELIESE and my phone, AMBY. lalala~~~

22. i love to give big hugs to my friends..and the trick is, u'll have to say "biiiggg huuuuggg" when u hug each other. =)

23. Sometimes my words might sound like provocation, but I only retaliate when others do it to me first..

24. I love fairytales.a lot.. and i share this passion with my other sisters, anis n nina.. the princess that i like the most is..cinderella. =j

25. This might sound weird, but I collect my prepaid cards, my bus and plane tickets, and movie tickets..

For those who wants to know me well..this is definately a good start. (^_^)


-----when Yasmin starts to write-----

Visible Life of a Girl Called Min

At last....i decided to make my life more visible to others..
"why?"
people might ask..

Well, lets just say it has been hard to keep it to myself, everything that happened to me..of course, not literally. This idea came from my dearest friends who really cared. To these lovely people, you know who you are and you know
I LOVE YOU all so much! (^_^)

*if your pics are not here it doesnt mean i dont love you. =)

To start of, let me share the concrete reasons on why i(with the encouragements from others) decided to start blogging...

• if i write in my diary, it helps me to spill my feelings to an innocent, scented, semi-visible flowery pink papers but there is no one to help me figure out what to do..as a diary do not speak even though at times i wish it does because the diary knows me best..

• if i talk to people, sometimes it is just not enough because somehow NOT everybody is obliged to listen..only listen.. without interrupting the story that i'm trying to tell..

• just because..blogs are visible and strangers can indeed 'touch' it and respond to it as they wish..to make it sound simple, i want a neutral party to help me figure out what i'm facing in order to grow up, to be more matured..

• i enjoy reading other's blogs and i want them to know that i want them to enjoy reading mine too..

• blogging can really help me to express my feelings endlessly...

• i was encouraged by some beautiful, loving friends to start doing something that they enjoyed very much..

• i'm tired of being a quiet party to those who like to say bad things about me, and its high time that these ignorant people hear my side of story, once and for all.
  

Yeah..that's about it, what i can think of la now.. can't promise how frequent i'll share but i will share something in this blog..i shall stop now or else i might start a story at this very beginning, which actually is not my plan at the moment.lolz. =)

toodles..


Love,

-yasmin-


-----when Yasmin starts to write-----