of heartbreaks and happiness

alhamdulillah, the results are out. syukur sgt2 :)



the story of heartbreaks:

i still remember the moments when i came out from the exam hall, i almost burst to tears after every paper, because i feel that my answer sheets are full of craps, and none of the papers made me feel satisfied. none. not like when i was in my first year, at least i knew what i wrote may make sense at any point. no, not the same with the 2nd year papers. turned to mama, abg, anis and imran. always they had to listen to me, mumbling about how i hate my answers and how afraid i was if i fail any of the papers. the time when i had to force myself to stop crying due to frustration of the previous paper. the tension i went through just to focus on the upcoming papers. the late night calls to mama telling her how stupid i felt, how hard it was for me to really bury myself in the books and notes, how too much expectation can make me feel stressed, how afraid i was if i ever disappoint papa and mama. erm and at one point, how stressed i was and the thought that i will not graduate on time. heartbreaks everytime, i assure you. but then, eventhough i was at the stage of stress that can make me vent out anytime, when i see imran and my other first year friends struggle for their papers, i cannot help but to push them to work harder and try their best. ironic, because i can't tell myself to do the same :( moments of heartbreaks. yes.






the story of happiness:

then came holiday :) yeah the best part of being a student is that you will have long holidays after each tiring semester. holiday is supposed to be fun, and it is indeed fun for me. spent time with my loved ones.. going everywhere~ eventhough it was hard at first, being far from imran, everything went perfectly well :) imran is currently busy with his GYS stuffs, and most of the cherpoms left for ko-k camping tapinye, i tak ikut. huhu but takpelah, i'm looking forward to my family holiday plans :) i just came back from kl, and i was informed by imran that i had passed all my 2nd year papers. alhamdulillah sgt2 ya rabbi! imran knew how i broke down after each paper, and somehow this news made my day :) taktau result kwn2 but i hope everybody pun lepas. kita semua nak grad bersama-sama. korang, kita masuk UM sama2, kita akan keluar UM bersama-sama jugak ok, janji? :) yes, the rainbow finally shows itself :) thank you to those who told me that everything will be alright, for all the attention and for time spent to listen to me. thank you all :)

p/s: awak, whatever the outcomes are, we will get through it together. i had promise you that once, and i keep my promises. and i love you as much as you love me, you know that :)

yours truly,




noor yasmin