9 months already :)

due to lack of time dan busy teramat sangat, i didn't have the opportunity to write my monthly posts on my relationship with the dearest love, encik imran osman. another reason is that, the date was during the orientation week, and segan lah kalau the freshies actually stalk my blog (perasan) and found out that their nominee for THE MOST ARROGANT JKO, THE MOST HATED JKO and THE MOST RELIABLE JKO is actually naturally silly and hopeless when it concerns her love life ;P



so here i am, back writing. staying at home at the moment, and sebab tu its kinda hard to online selalu..huhu.. so when i have the opportunity, i'll definately spend some time with this opened diary of mine ;)



so. 9 months. 9 meaningful months. imran and i had actually made it official that we have known each other for over 1 year by now, and yeah, its already that long :) still can remember how we always bertekak during mock, how we always discomfort each other and how ppl will tease us out of the smallest things we did, such as sitting next to each other after every mock trial practice ;) memories..and as i had mentioned in one of the posts, imran actually texted me for the first time during the early days of mock trial practice :) yes, i still remember all that :)



i know this might sound cliche, but the journey has not been an easy one, we had so much dissatisfactions and so many things to settle throughout our relationship. and we know there's more to come.



awak, i know that you would never forget the offer that i got, which i told you about it and that actually made you feel so sad, just in case i would accept that offer and leave you here. i just want you to know that you are one of the most important things in my life, and i would never ever hurt you purposely. i had made my decision at the moment, and yes, if u ask me, mmg ade sedikit regret in my mind lepas sy tolak offer tu, coz u know how i would love to accept it and challenge myself to be better in that sense, but your presence showed me that it would be so much better if i stick with you. nasib kita mmg tak boleh expect kan awk, and the fact that you actually betul2 against that offer really showed me that you want me near always and that you truly love me.



haha honestly, sy betul2 rasa yg awk sgt tak supportive masa tu, but when i thought deeply, u actually think about us. about u. about me. and that is enough for me to decline 100 offers as such in the future, if you show me that much love :) yes, i guess its a sacrifice, kan? and i wanted a win-win situation. lets look into that matter, shall we? hmm.. kalau sy accept that offer, it would be a win-lose situation, coz i would be able to do what i want but there's a risk that our relationship wont work out. so i declined the offer, just so that we'll win together, that i will have you and you will have me :) betul jugak awk cakap, i went overseas for 1 week and went back to ktn for 2 months dah cukup to make us gaduh selalu and feel so lonely, apetah lagi kalau terpaksa berjauhan lama2. i understand that, i felt it too remember? :)



awak, 9 months is a long time. but its not enough. everyday i learn new things about u. how awk eja nama mcm budak tak habis tadika ;) and how awk boleh pengsan kalau dpt mkn spagetti yg sedap kat secret recipe ;) and everyday u learn new things about me. how stubborn i can be, how easy i feel guilt, and how much we need to see each other everyday just to say hye :)

HAPPY 9TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY :)

I LOVE YOU

p/s: ni paling comel. we went to bank islam to bukak account for imran. and he wrote in that form, his name is 'MUHAMMAD IMRAN bin khairi osman'. mmg mcm budak tak habis tadika eja kan? ;P

- NOOR YASMIN mohamad ;P -