red and blue :)

[X] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous. ---> plus can't put my hands still :S

[X] I am really ticklish. ---> stress on the word 'really'

[X] I'm afraid of the dark.

[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open

[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed

[ ] I am homosexual.

[X] I believe in true love.

[ ] I've ran away from home

[ ] I listen to political music

[ ] I collect comic books

[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[X] I've stayed out all night.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[X] I watch the news.

[X] I love Disney movies.

[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.

[ ]I am a sucker for brown eyes. ---> shahrukh really makes me go crazy~

[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes.

[X]I dont kill bugs. ---> i tell ppl to move them away.

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[X] I've slipped and fell in public.

[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation

[ ] I love Spam

[X] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class

[X] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil.

[X] I like multiple people

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[X] I am self-conscious.

[X] I love to laugh.

[ ] I have tried alcohol.

[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[ ] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies

[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[ ] I have a lot of scars.

[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[X]I like chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.

[X] I play computer games when I'm bored.

[X] Gotten lost in the city.

[ ] Thought of suicide before.

[ ] Seen a shooting star.

[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas.

[X] Hugged a stranger.

[ ] Been in a fist fight.

[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose

[X] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator. ---> habits? ;p

[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[X] Gotten stitches.

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour

[X]Bitten someone. ---> and kittens reminds him of me ;p

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[X] Gotten the chicken pox.

[ ] Crashed into a car.

[ ] Been to germany.

[X] Ridden in a taxi.

[ ] Shoplifted.

[ ] Been fired.

[ ] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[ ] Stole something from your job.

[ ] Gone on a blind date

[X] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[ ] Been to Europe.

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[X] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed. ---> with a company :)

[X] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.

[X] Thought of someone a lot lately.

[ ] Hate the world.

p/s: oh, awak sudah long call :) i'm so happy for you although we don't meet. take care :)






-i should be revising now (-.-'')-

library is the place to learn ;)

so i woke up very early in the morning, padahal yesterday i slept quite late i must say. bergayut kejap, tgk movie kejap after 4 hours of criminal revision. not cool. i know. not sexy. i know. not healthy. i know!!!! haha. somehow my sleeping time entah ke mana, tapi ape2 pun mmg akan terbangun awal. kesian kan tak cukup tido? :(



so i decided to go to the library, just because i'm bored, stuck in the room. did i mention, yesterday i got the room to myself, as my roommates went home. sy tak suke tido sorang2, tak suke! and much to my determination, i walked to the library and settled at the 3rd floor, as usual as its least cold there.



revising, sekali sekala mata memandang merata-rata and suddenly ade la this one entity, 3 actually, settled there also, quite far from the place i sit. i noticed one guy kept looking at me, so dah tak senang duduk da nih. ahh pedulikan mereka, i still have some short notes to be done. ye, saye rindu awk, imran :( and i keep myself very busy so that the thought of you won't distract me.


as i was occupied, writing and memorising some cases for intoxication, (giggled teringat how unsound imran can be) suddenly that guy came to my table, and mintak tolong. oh, budak econs final year, fairly good looking, very much a gentleman, good height :) to be noted,this is a fair comment.hee~ i think he came to me since there was no one else at the 3rd floor, at times like this. hish malasla pulak nak tolong, tak nampak ke i'm occupied?



"erm, abg, sy ni betul bukan librarian, betul! cuba abg tanye librarian kat bwh, buku tu pun kat 1st floor je" *i smiled, being sarcastic, trying to hint that i'm bz


"tadi da tanye tapi tak jumpe, segan la nak tanye lagi. takpela, awk bz eh. sorry kacau" *he smiled, guilty.




"haha takpelah meh sy tolong tunjukkan rak nye" *starting to feel like a useless law student, org dtg library kita, lyn dia mcm tah pape plak kan.




so i walked with him, to the 1st floor, cari buku tu dan naik semula ke 3rd floor. nasib baik cari benda senang, kalau tak jumpe, tak ke malu? hehe. pure silence but sekali sekala ade la smiled, as he fussed about his final year subjects, how he wished he had taken engineering instead *eh dia ni, mcm saye ade tanye je pulak semua tu? takyah la mencuba sgt.haha.




"boleh sy tau nama awk?"


"nape, nak kasi kad terima kasih ke? yasmin"


"ok.nama sy faris. tq for your assistance tadi. this is gonna be awkward, but you have such a wonderful smile. will i be seeing you often? *woah at that time i got speechless jap, rasa muke merah. berterus terang nye?he is such a brave guy ;)



"err errmm err maybe kot.sy dan boyfriend sy slalu gak duduk kat 3rd floor ni" *trying to hint



"oh yeke.okay,i saw your facebook tadi,nanti abg add ok? *ber-abg2 la pulak.haha.



"hmm ok."




beberapa minit selepas tu, i got up and started packing as start rasa tak selesa because i can't resist to look at their table. to avoid him from starting a conversation, i decided to leave. went passed them and all 3 of them were smiling and waving, such lovely people.. and i can't help smiling back.



so, today i learnt that intoxication can result to total acquittal, a smile is always an icebreaker, i am easily hungry after revision session, library 3rd floor is cold, and last but not least, there is no harm doing good to others :)



so, yeah, library is the place to learn. ;D

i miss imran a lot :(

-me-

mothers do look young, don't they? :)

today i completed my constitutional law exam. what a 'great' start for exam, wished had more time(as usual) and how i wished my bestfriend come visit me say..today, after the paper? because i can bearly write in that condition. huhu. so yesterday night i texted mama "mama, min takut lah exam esok pagi :(" and as usual, soon after i texted her, she called. it was around 10pm and it was already her bed time. she gave me some words of advice and being mama, she was being cute, as usual :)



"ape nak gentarkan? kite da buat yg terbaik, da usaha, so tawakal jelah ok? esok jgn fikir takut, u had gone through 1 year of law school and this is the 2nd time you are facing another law exam, so whats the worst that can happen? ha kan suke tengok cite shahrukh khan kan? ingat tak ape dia cakap dlm mohabbatein? dia kata, kalau kita takut, kita doa. kalau masih takut, kite tutup mata dan bygkan mama and papa, and terus binakan semangat tu utk berjaya. apelah min. kata suke sgt shahrukh khan, dgr la nasihat dia tu"



haha and guess what, i laughed my lungs out! mama ni comel la! boleh pulak relate kan benda tu kan, and to her expectation, i got all spirited lah pastu ;p and as usual, this morning at 7++ she called and said the nicest things, to calm me down, and even after the paper pun she called me to ask on how things were and that i don't have to think anything about the paper anymore, let it pass and work on the upcoming papers.

harini mama turns 48 :) but my mama looks 40 everytime :)

my mama, my best friend~



- semoga bertambah comel


- semoga dipanjangkan umur and dimurahkan rezeki


- semoga murah hati selalu


- semoga dapat beli high heels cantik2 so you'll look at least my height ;)


- semoga sihat selalu, gune lah osim tu selalu


- semoga tak kena marah dgn cikgu mengaji ;P


- semoga tak kena buli dengan nina


- semoga menang kalau main online games :D


- i love you mama, and i am not gonna get bored saying this no matter when :)

- make her cry, and i will make you cry for the rest of your life ----> oouu! gengster tak? heh ;p

i love you, mama :)








p/s: i know you don't go through my blog, but tell you what, i'll make aiman show you this post :)











-min-

SwEet tReAtS

text messages~



y: awak saye rase tak disayangi, papa tak jadi datang jumpe saye :-(

i: alo kenape? meh meh turun bawak garfu skali :-) meh meh kat meja batu ni.

y: awk nak pinjam garfu sy ke? ok jap.





5 minutes later, kat bawah~



i: nah.. *sambil menghulurkan 2 kotak kek from secret recipe


y: awk beli kek utk saye???? waaa!!!~~ terharunye! *terus amik and bukak tgk2 ade blueberry cheese and choc mud. makan blueberry cheese dulu :)

i: happy sy, tgk awk happy *smiling, the most sincere smile ever

y: terharunye saye.. terima kasih wak, lama tak makan makanan sedap

i: awk lama tak mkn mknn sedap? yelah sgt tu.

y: awk nak?


i: nak sikit pls


y: bukan awk tak suke mkn cheesecake? *mcm tak pecaye imran nak, dalam hati takut habis ;p tapi suap jugak sikit

i: *makan.buat muke pelik.

y: sedap kan?

i: boleh la.. nak lagi.



hujan rintik2..bertukar tempat ke kerusi2 merah tu~



y: awk nak blueberry ni tak? *letak atas forks and offer kat imran


i: taknak. *bukak mulut and makan.

y: haha! kata taknak?!

i: huhu.. awk nye definition of perkataan 'taknak' tu lain lah drpd definition sy la bee *muke tak puas hati

y: baby, awk nye reaction of taknak tu pun lain sgt la drpd reaction sy kalau taknak *wink


i: habis tu awk da suap, sy kena ikut jelah definition awk.

lepas sy habiskan itu, sy habiskan pulak choc mud tu, with imran's help of course :) then played some game as usual before naik ke bilik masing2.. wahaha btw mlm smlm kitorg main kejar2 lagi kat kolej after supper and i got emo because imran taknak kasi his watch. *giggles.

point post ini is, imran sangat sweet!!!! i had an awful pain this whole day and tak makan and mane nak tahu, he gave me that sweet treat.

'treat' as in the cake, and the care :)

i love you always gile :)

p/s: mcm mane nak merajuk lama2, kalau selalu buat org cair camni? :)
awk lagi sweet daripada kek tu, as you said sy lagi sweet dari vanilla m&m :D

smiling,


yasmin

half a year, still want you near~

its funny, when people keep on counting the days to that one important date, and when that date arrives, you just don't know what to write. i have been writing every month on every 16th, as it marks the date imran and i decided to start a serious relationship. time? 5.40am ;)

random facts about muhammad imran bin khairi osman~


- eats a lot, every now and then.
- will search for toilet first when we go out together
- next on the list, bench :)
- likes neon colours..but now dah tone down sikit.
- thinks hindustan is lame
- loves green
- can be very sarcastic at times
- drinks redbull to stay up
- hates driving, hates congested traffic
- thinks that he is handsome
- can sing but too shy. its ok, as long as he sings to me :)
- very much spoilt :)


random facts about imran & yasmin, when together~


- love to go for supper
- love bsb
- love to watch movies and go for bowling
- we act abnormal in public ;)
- both are stubborn
- both are childish
- love vanilla ice-cream :)
- always coincidentally wear the same colour of attire
- like spontaneous things
- like thrill rides- corkscrew :D
- think that the quality of a&w's waffle is degrading
- always can't decide place to eat
- always cari pasal when jumpe parents ;)

The things we did, the things we said

Keep coming back to me and make me smile again

You showed me how to face the truth

Everything that's good in me I owe to you

There is not a second you're not here with me

The love you gave, the grace you've shown

Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

happy 6 months anniversary baby <3

yours,



me

surat untuk bulan

bulan,


hari ni genap 6 bulan umur hubungan sy dgn dia. dan dah 6 bulan saye minta tlg awk sampaikan pesanan cinta sy kpd dia, setiap hari. sy tak tau samada awk sampaikan atau tak sbb sepanjang 6 bulan ni awk tak pernah beritau sy awk dah sampaikan pesanan saya atau tak. mungkin sy terlalu selesa dgn bantuan awk, jadi tak pernah sekali pun sy ambil tahu samada awk sampaikan pesanan sy kpd dia atau tak.





bulan,


mungkin ia salah sy sbb selalu minta tolong dari awk, dan tak ingatkan dia sendiri setiap hari betapa sy sygkan dia and perlukan dia. sehingga mungkin kepercayaan dia terhadap sy hilang mcm tu je. janji yg sy berikan kpd dia, dia anggap tak bermakna. ya, mungkin salah sy. tapi bulan, sy mula fikirkan yg sebenarnya mmg dari awal lagi kepercayaan dia terhadap sy mmg rapuh sgt dan mungkin juga mmg tak pernah ada?




bulan,


usaha sy selama ni tak berharga ke? kata2 rindu yg sy luahkan selama ni tak bernilai ke? masa yg sy luangkan utk dia, bersama dia tak bermakna ke? ape salah sy sampai dia tak percayakan sy? tak cukup ke usaha yg sy dah tunjukkan? tak bermakna ke semua kesabaran yg sy tunjukkan? tak berharga ke semua kemaafan yg sy pernah beri kpd dia selama ni sampai dia ulangi lagi perkara yg sama?




bulan,


mungkin salah sy sbb terlalu sygkn dia. sbb tak pernah timbulkan isu kepercayaan terhadap dia. sbb terlalu sabar terima keburukan, kesalahan dia walaupun berulang kali dia lakukannya. sbb terlalu berusaha memperbaiki keadaan walaupun jelas itu bukan salah sy. sbb tak pernah ungkit kesalahan dia. ya, mmg salah sy.




bulan,


tolong sy, kepercayaan dlm hbgn bg sy sgt penting. kalau dia tak percayakan sy jd di mana kedudukan sy dlm hati dia, dlm hidup dia? sakit, patah hati sy bila dia ckp mcm tu dan mengungkit satu kesalahan bodoh yg pernah sy buat dlm keadaan emosi yg tak terkawal. janji yg sy buat kpd dia untuk berubah mcm tak bermakna langsung. senang bg dia utk tarik balik ape yg dia ckpkn sbb bukan sy yg timbulkan hal tu. hancur hati sy, hbgn selama 6 bulan masih takde kepercayaan di pihak dia.




bulan,


sy nak tahu ape yg dia nak lakukan utk hbgn ni. sy hanya lihat dia menunggu sy melupakan hal ini. sy taknak bekerja seorg diri utk memperbaiki hbgn ni, sy taknak. sy dah lakukan yg terbaik utk kami, itu yg penting. sepatutnya hari ni sy gembira sbb hbgn dgn dia dah 6 bulan, bukan sng nak capai..tapi kenape sy tak rasa mcm tu? kenapa smlm sy rasa mcm org asing dlm hidup dia? :(




bulan,


terima kasih sbb luangkan masa baca surat ni panjang, tp ni yg terbuku dlm hati sy sejak semalam. tolong sy sekali ni je, sampaikan surat ni kpd dia, supaya dia tau, supaya dia sedar betapa patahnye hati sy dgn perbuatan dia smlm. supaya dia belajar bersabar dan tak terlalu mengikut hati, dan paling penting supaya dia hormat dan percayakan sy selepas ni, seperti mana sy hormat dan percayakan dia selama ni.

terima kasih bulan, sy takkan ganggu awk buat sementara waktu.

p/s: 6 bulan ni tak bermakna apa2 kpd awk ke, sayang?
because it means everything to me :(

-yasmin-

the 5 of us + little alina

today as i logged in to my facebook account and checked out abang's facebook page, i saw something at his info, azri is listed as his brother. omg. bile pulak adik ade facebook? dia tu mcm paling lambat utk segala-galanye lah. email pun dia paling lambat buat, that funny younger brother of mine :) alah ape2 pun yeay! adik da ade facebook. its about time kot, maybe due to peer pressure, sbb kwn2 dia semua da ade facebook and rather than adik sendiri yg add, kwn2 dia yg make the moves first. haha.. so basicly all my siblings except the baby doll dah ade facebook account, and hooray to that! :) *clap3

oh so then i listed him as my brother as well. and guess what, it appeared,

siblings:

Mohd Amirudin Mohamad
Aiman Mohamad
Noor Anis Mohamad
Mohd Azri Mohamad



ok nothing seems wrong kan? semuanye in an accordingly manner kan...


then i checked out abg's page again..




siblings:

Aiman Mohamad
Noor Anis Mohamad
Yasmin Mohamad
Mohd Azri Mohamad

haaaa..cube korang tengok!!! tengok betul2!! kenape ade warne merah tu???!!!! sape yg jadikan huruf tu warna merah??!!! da tak tersusun accordingly pun dah! sebab nama saye start dgn huruf Y!!!!! huhu.. *menunduk ke bawah sambil tutup muka

haih nanti kalau nina nak buat facebook, saye nak suruh dia tulis NINA MOHAMAD. so that tak nampak la mcm nama saye je yg pelik. haha.. kelakar kan. well lagi kelakar if saye teringat what happened when i was little and people kept on saying that i was an adopted child because my name starts with a different letter. lol :D

ok i crap when i want to. kalau taknak baca, sile tutup window ini :)

min-nina-anis-abg-adik-aiman

i miss home. i miss home. i miss home.









-yAsmin- ;)
(ok now da hijau) *wink!

suddenly

just now suddenly hati ni nak dgr lagu stickwitu by PCD. don't know why. ok i lied. its because i kinda miss you. you know who you are, and i know u are reading. somehow since that day, my heart refuses to let this go :( still can't accept the fact that it did happen, unplanned.



stickwitu


I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)


[Chorus:]
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you.
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.


I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
See the way we ride in our private lives,
Ain't nobody getting in between.
I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
And I say


And now
Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
I got you,
We'll be making love endlessly.
I'm with you (baby, I'm with you)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)


So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts.
So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say




p/s: old memories can trigger lots of unplanned emotions, no..? :'(

nama saya pinky. saye pink.

- kenape emosi sgt ni yasmin..?-

i sigh a lot these days

awk tak suka saye buat mcm tu tapi bila awk buat boleh pulak? darn lah. sy ingatkan awk main2 je when cerita2 pasal dia. mane nak tahu u actually put up hope. ahh sure you do, obvious kot? now i know. *sigh




mungkin all this while i keep those kinds of stories to myself to please you so that awk tak sakit hati. now saye sakit hati, ape cerita pulak? *sigh




tahulah awk bangga dgn ape yg dia tak buat kat awk tu tapi at least fikir lah pasal saye jugak. *sigh




lain kali saye nak cerita je semua benda biar awk rase sakit hati. *sigh

i want home.now! :(







me

mature vs maturity

today is such a meaningful day. had a great breakfast with dear mr.i-dont-think-i'm-crazy (so what if it was just roti canai?means a lot tahu tak?) and yeah, things are getting much2 better nowadays, of course the rain comes quite often but somehow the rainbow after that is very much priceless :)


to add, i had the most encouraging session with my PA (haha!) miss sharon and that was rather unforeseeable, it made me think really outside the box, and it felt good. never thought a PA session would be that fun and motivational. thank you, it made me realise that i'm a normal person as a whole (except when i'm with the craziest people alive) heh~



on top of the list is the talks i had with oh so beloved-understanding-sisterlike-friends of mine since i step into law school, kak rai baik and kak aishah little. those conversations along the corridor meant a lot to me, you guys know how spoilt i am, its because of loving people like you.

dear kak rai and kak little,

you always say the most right things when i feel that things are wrong, you hold me up so i don't fall hard, you make me realise that there are indeed two sides of a coin, and that i am yasmin and should be proud of myself for that, as there is only one me in this world and no one can become me, how hard they try.. :) thanks for all the advices, they never fail to make me shine again somehow..

maturity is not at all about age. it's about how you make decision and react to given situations. age is not a matter, in fact.
(kak little, 2010)

indeed kak, i had known that since forever but somehow the pressure i had to go through somehow made me forget that i am me, and i can actually react better in the situations i told you tadi. you made me realise that i am better then 'them' and that i don't have to compare anything with anyone, because people are different, and just because i got hurt by what they say, it doesn't mean that they are better than me. no no no, you are not at all better than me.



from now on, i promise myself to be who i was back then, and not to let other's unsatisfaction affect me. i promise, i will try :) and yes, about the relationship between 2 persons, the best person to talk about it to is the other person itself, because only these 2 person knows what's going on between them and org lain yg nak butt in to make things spicier are just losers. i totally agree..

the clouds are moving away for now, at least now i feel much eased at heart and i will never ever make those silly things come my way, ever again. :)

p/s: get a life, you boring souls!

if only you can see love around you

when yasmin becomes an optimist, again :)

-min-

what to expect..

- constitutional law test



- islamic evidence test



-islamic evidence law assignment



-administrative law PBL assignment



- AGM



- stress



- more sleepless nights



- more ice-cream



- mood swings



- people's perception



- home *fingers crossed



- finals! *tremble

cepatlah 5 tahun~

..:: yours truly ::.

what these 3 words mean

I LOVE YOU

I love you means that i accept you for the person that you are and that i do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that i do not expect perfection from you, just as you do not expect it from me. It means that i will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things that i want to. It means loving you when you are down, not just when you're fun to be with. It means that i know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that i care enough to fight for what we have and that i love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me. At times,I love you, but at times you make me angry and I still love you no matter how angry you made me.

I'm not telling you it is going to be easy, i'm telling you its gonna be worth it.

just because i miss you.. :(








-me-

craziness

imran da gile!!!!!!





"saya gile" (imran,2010)











yasmin is crazy, too :)