Some things just refuse to leave

back then in high school, i was a really active student, especially in debate. Since i was in form 1 i had been exposed to english parliamentary style debate, and i never looked back :) I had my secondary education at a well known school in kuantan, at a sekolah harian biasa. yeah, i've never been put in a hostel before this, and yeah, PLKN taught me a lot. haha haih only friends that went through all those memorable experiences together with me can judge my adherence and resistence ahaha these blabberings are done as i am too lazy to press 'backspace' :P


back to the subject, debate. When i was in form 2, my team represented Pahang to the Piala Datuk Wira's English Parliamentary Style Debate Competition, at the national level. we lost to Selangor, if i'm not mistaken it was sekolah damansara something something. Erm let me recall my team members. Dalvin, Renard, Kak Ju, Hwee Yin, Anusha and myself :) i was the youngest debater, i was 14 at that time :) During form 4, we got into the nationals again, and this time, against a school from Johor. We won :D the speakers were hwee yin, anusha, myself, nadia and karen :) it was really sweet as we managed to be in the same position, only this time its sweeter because we won. yeah, it was really sweet :) we were supposed to represent malaysia to the next level but it was cancelled last minute due to unknown reasons. (if only i know i have the RIGHT TO ASK back then, i would use it) :P


my team members during our second time at the national level were all girls, pretty2 girls *ehem, and always our teacher would tell us to use our persuasive and innocent, sweet voices and pretty faces to convince the adjudicators to be on our side. i don't know if that really worked but nevertheless, we had fun, especially when our rivals were from all boys school :P the strategy always works ;P we had great fun, i tell you :D after that level, we were replaced by all new faces as the seniors had left school and nadia and i were busy preparing for our SPM. but, we helped out when the school team needed us :)


debate is fun. i tried forum. it was not my thing. i tried public speaking. it was not for me. its funny when i actually told myself to stop debating, i thought i had too much debates already but when i stepped into law school, i can't really quit from debates because our english course requires the students to debate, as one of the ongoing assessments. so. yeah. but i must admit that the experiences i had back then really thought me to think critically and spontaneously, and alhamdulillah i am able to use them when i need to :)



i was really moved to write about this, because yesterday when i was cleaning my room, i came across my colourful cue cards (little cards used in previous debates, mine were of many different colours) and i realised instantly how i miss those times. the best team ever, we were practically sisters of different parents. my teachers. they were our second, third mothers. debate has taught me so much. the joy of success, the pain of failures, the frustrations, the sacrifices. but i also realise one thing. eventhough i was given the opportunity to go back in time, back to those times, i would refuse. throughout my 21 years of living, i realise that there are things that i have to let go. that is just the way nature works :)

my colourful cards :)

the sole reason why i refuse to get involved in debate now is because i had went through it once, and once is enough for everything. deep inside, i have this stand that i have to try other things. i had done so many things during my secondary school period, and there are so many other things that i can do in future :)

when i was cleaning my room, i also came accross so many sentimental things.



- one of my diaries. very very meaningful you see ;P
- my plkn autograph book :) awwwh i miss you guys lah!
- wish cards
- kad raya from you, with rm10 duit raya in it :) u sent it back in 2007 :)
- garfield papers ;)
- pictures taken at times square in 2007 :) i still have them.

these things will remain, while other unnecesary papers and books will be recycled soon.

p/s:

"noor yasmin, you can't keep all those things, they will take a big space.
just keep in your memory. and learn to let go." (papa, 2010)

some things just refuse to leave,

yasmin

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart

my mum loved them. my papa hardly listens to them. i know a couple of their famous songs that are being compiled in love songs cds. Air Supply is not as close to my heart like backstreet boys or even o-town. but when a friend invited me to go, i said yes :) Air Supply is having a World Tour, and kuantan is their last stop. (and yes my dearly beloved boyfie, kuantan has stadiums. 2 big stadiums) saye tak marah, nasihat :)


yesterday, i texted ismail karim to ask, should i go or not, as i am not a big fan and it will be awkward if everybody is singing and i'm not. haha. being a really big fan oldies, maell said yeah i should go, and he also listed some of the songs that i should look forward to, during that concert. haha and maell, thanks for that. i had a great time and as i tell you, if u're anywhere near kuantan, i'd take the trouble to tag u along to that concert. but as i promised, i'll acknowledge ur precious help though :) but sorry, the pics are not that clear coz i didnt bring my camera along.

yasmin's and nadia's :)

i swear, we were that close :D

they sang quite a number of songs, but i can only sing along for erm... 5 songs? i think so. but it was a good show. they sang like in the records, seriously. haha kang zarul irwan, i tak la old school mane, this one was unplanned pun ;P and i tau la bob marley u je best :D hehe.
the drummer really rocks! i wonder when will my people have such talent :) international :)

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
:D

you, would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised,
i, just can't live a lie anymore.
i would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry,
there's nothing left to say,
so goodbye..

all in all, this is a night to remember. thank you tengku nadiatul hanim :)

i kinda like drummers ;P

yasmin

the honest thirteenth

as i'm typing this, i am feeling uneasy. honestly i don't know why, honestly i don't want to think why. honestly i don't feel like telling. i don't know what exactly i'm feeling now, not sure of what i suppose to think now, and not sure whether i'm as excited as i was yesterday, waiting for today to come.

this one is for the person that caught my heart,

after 13 months, i can assure you that your heart is still safe in my chest, has not moved even a bit and insyaallah will permanently stay there as long as you wish to place it there. you know i take anniversary dates as an important date of a month, and just because a year together has passed, it doesn't mean i take it as less important.


maybe i was wrong. maybe you do take note. maybe you do care about this little thing that i cared for a lot. just maybe. and if there is one thing you can do to make me feel better in future, i know you'd try your best to fulfill it, because you love me, you are afraid to lose me, and you want us to last for many many years to come. i know that. i believe that. you have been a very good partner by providing me with so much love, and you know that being a little more sensitive would be great for me.


we have to admit that not only your life has changed, you have changed mine too. and knowing that, our behaviours towards others should not be all the same as when we were single and not committed to each other back then. that should change too, in order to take care of each other's feelings. there are times that i want to do something for myself, but you always come to mind. knowing that you might feel uneasy about that particular thing, i withdrew. the limitations, the demanding sensitivity. i know, i feel choked sometimes, too. in fact, many times. but if that is what i have to do to keep my feelings for you to remain, and for yours to remain, i would not make such a fuss.


you told me you feel the insecurity. i do too. i always do. but i trust you and everything else should not matter. i'm really glad that now we are more open to talk about our dissatisfactions towards each other without having to be emotional when saying it to each other's face. i know you know that if the problem arises between us, we are the most suitable person to talk about it, not anybody else. they don't feel what we feel, they don't know us like we do.

happy 13th monthliversary baby



i ♥ you

p/s: i hear your voice on the line but its just not the same as being with you. i hope you feel it too.

i miss you :(

yours,


me

living with the superstar

as you all might have known by now, i am a really big fan of shahrukh khan :D :D if you don't just yet, feel free to scroll down to the end of this window, and on your left you'll see one of the almighty's best creation in my eyes :) *drama lebih


anyway. i just watched ''living with the superstar-shah rukh khan" on channel 707 at 8.03pm just now, and he said something that really put some senses into this thick skull of mine.

"i don't get caught up with successes. i just don't settle for failures"

brilliant, right?

oh srk,

:)

when she knows the words

yesterday was a fair day :) together with nina, i accompanied mama to do some last minute shopping for hari raya haji. mama's generosity always keep me smiling. oh. nina too :)

later, nina asked for story books. the thick ones, not the normal kid's stories book, not the colourful-4 sentences in a page- pretty2 pictures type of books. she actually asked for the thick ones with thick covers, the ones i used to own when i reach 9 years old. she is currently 7. those times, papa would always but those whenever we stepped into bookstores, and which i found very boring to read because of the black and white pages, and the yellowish papers, despite the fact that i do have a certain fondness towards the smell of books; especially the ones in the library. weird, huh?

back to nina, she got 2 enid blyton books, with 8 short stories in each book. it brings back memories you see, as i myself have several collections of those kinds of books- which she had finished all, and she actually understands it. this is proved by the fact that she can actually tell me the stories at random times, and she even came up with some quizzes later, just to make sure that i was listening when she told all the stories. pretty brilliant for a 7 year old, no? :)

always thought she's a doll who came alive

candid :)

if you meet her and ask what her hobbies are, it would be just one. 'i love to read'. last wednesday she had received all her standard 2 text books, and by friday she told me she had almost finished reading the english textbook, where she got all excited because in that particular book there's a boy with the name 'imran'. so much of non-influence :P


its just so hard for me to digest that there are actually people who really love to read. as a child, i was really into colouring and dancing and singing and etc etc but none of them with the word 'read'. but i developed the interest in books la somehow as i grow wiser (ehem) and i guess some people are just different :) so now my little sister is really into reading, makes it easier for me to find her birthday presents, i suppose :P who knows one day she'll have her own collections of books, right? did i mention, she was so excited to dig into my jurisprudence textbook and she laughed right after because she can't understand a sentence ;P

okay nina, go read your books and be a doctor ;)

err. a kid is still a kid ;D







p/s: its the 11th day already *pout










i do love books,

me

because i know how it feels, sitting in your place

today papa and i went out to settle some stuffs, and later after that i had to follow him to his kuantan office, to settle some other stuffs. in short, today's out and about were only done to settle stuffs. ok too much stuff words makes this post look stuffy. oh what the heck ;P anyway, its been quite a while since i stepped into his office. and the first thing i noticed was abang's black crocs slippers at the entrance. so much of taking care of the image ey? haha and the next thing i came accross was papa's black crocs slippers. oh. erm *silent. oh well. it's his office so.. hmm. yeah (-.-'')



so when i came in, there was the receptionist, smiling and looking. i know i don't look familiar to them. next, i headed to abang's office. papa headed me there, to stay put until he finishes his works. take not, to stay put. haha (stay put; to me means walk around sentuh sana sentuh sini, ask this and that, sentuh files) :P so that's wat i did. i stayed put, like a nice girl :)



''oouu abang. min nak main komputer jap''. tak sempat to say anything, the next thing we realised was that i was there, sitting in his place, using his computer :D invaded his space for a while should not bring any harm right? *wink ;) oh i snapped some pictures too :)

what do we have here? oh a busy, hardworking young lawyer.
good good *clap3

(-.-'') i hereby declare the previous caption void. lol.

kerja saya setakat ini; bukak file, pegang pen, senyum :D

i bet all the staffs must be wondering what on earth these two kids are doing in abang's office, as the office is normally quiet. heh. they might also pray not to have another maniac present there i guess. hehe ;P

love,

yasmin mohd

even the day must give way to the night

if i can wish for something right now, it would be the ability to read between the lines, always. so that nobody can use that weakness against me and not feel so underestimated when i am told that i don't get the things being said. so i will not feel so offended when that was told to me so many times, as if i am too slow to understand it in the first place. just spare me all the sarcastic attempts please, its not that i don't want to understand.

sometimes i just want to cry, weep, and cry again until i sleep. better that way. nobody else would be affected.

yours truly,

me

oh give me a break

"hye awak :) my name is -whoever- :) but you can call me anything you want ;)"





sheesh.hokay weirdo (-.-'')









a subtle reminder. don't try too hard or you'll lose it all.










not again,

yasmin

and i thought i made an agreement with Ursula

i'm losing my voice.

this can only mean one thing.

i'm a princess, mungkin sedara princess ariel. *haha mental kejap

princess: kalau saye bisu awak sayang saye lagi tak? :(

biskut jacobs: sayang :) mcm little mermaid pulak ;) awak mesti ikan pari kan? *imran tau yasmin tak mkn ikan pari

princess: no lah saye bukan ikan pari i don't eat myself :(

ideas i got:

1. si biskut menyamakan si princess dgn ikan pari yg tak cantik. *tak suka ini tapi redha

2. si biskut amat suka ikan pari. maka jika princess=ikan pari means biskut suka princess. *hokay ni suka sangat :D

i'd settle for the 2nd one, thank you. aww suweet sgt tu nanti kite pegi mkn ikan pari byk2 eh. byk2 pn takpe!! :D

yours hameesha forever,

your pwincess

it goes back into the workshop

this post is dedicated to encik imran osman, since he was quite upset about what had happened yesterday. this one's for you dearest.

satria hitam kuning is back into the workshop :(

*semua org sila doakan kereta itu akan sihat seperti dulu ye, kereta tu banyak berjasa kepada kami dan kamu jugak kan

pesanan khidmat masyarakat:

- pandulah dengan berhemah, ingatlah kereta tersayang

- mungkin kereta tu faham bila org nak bikin dia, jadi dia akan masuk workshop secara sukarela

- accidents happens, the best we can do is protect ourselves when it happens, and i'm really glad you are okay sayang, even a scratch can make me really worry but kalau takde scratch tak manly la kan? ;P

p/s: its okay baby i'm sure she'll be fine.nanti kuar from workshop, she'll look as good as new :) nanti kita kasi dia kawan dgn armaan shah ok :D

love,

min

when people tend to be too literal

one:

papa, anis and nina went out at night to a kopitam. nina ordered air suam but yg sampai adalah air yg panas that she couldn't drink it at all. smua org da habis mkn, yet nina tak mampu nak take even a sip of the air suam. so, bila nina terasa dia lambat habiskan air.

nina: pa, bungkus jela air suam ni.

papa: cett! mane ade org bungkus air suam! tak penah dibuat org.

anis: minum la kat rumah, mcm takde air suam je kat rumah?

nina: kalau tak bungkus mcm mane nak minum kat rumah?


(-.-'')


literally, mmg betul ape nina cakap tu. haha but mmg tak pernah terfikir pun nak bungkus air suam. kadang2 lawak suci mcm ni buat kita geram kan?

two:

mama, anis, nina and myself are watching tv. tiba2 we talked about money.

mama: kat dunia ni, takde benda yang free. semua kena ade balasan.

nina: eh taklah! buku teks nina tu free je?


(-.-'')


tak pasal2 benda ni ade unsur2 politik pulak. budak ni bijak sgt, semua benda dia nak apply.

three:

papa, nina, aiman and myself were riding in the car after we came back from starbucks, nina bought chocolate cream chip frap. she offered to me, but baru nak take a sip, dia tarik the straw.

min: nina ni hati busuk lah, dah la tak kasi kak min beli pastu org nak sikit berkira sgt eh??

nina: erm kak min, memang hati nina busuk, sebab bila nina mandi, nina tak mandikan hati sekali. nina tak penah mandikan hati nina. mane boleh mandikan!

min: bukan tu maksud org lah!

nina: abang yg ajar nina.


(-.-'')


adik saye tak se-sweet boyfriend saye.mungkin dia masih terlalu kecik utk jd sweet2 kan? haha but now i know abg saye tak beri pengaruh yg baik terhadap nina.

ini kisah emaknye pulak:


mama and i were reading the same newspaper, tajuknye "..-whoever- tutup akaun twitter".

mama: kalau twitter tu kita kena bayar ke?

min: no lah free je semua. kenape?

mama: tu tulis perkataan 'akaun' tu? akaun tu kan pasal credit-debit.

min: mungkin mama nak borak dgn min pasal benda lain sebelum min gelak besar lagi ma.


(-.-'')


mama saya sangat comel. haih.

p/s: stress la dengan lawak2 random mcm ni.haha.mungkin sekarang ni semua benda pun kita tak boleh interprete literally. ingatkan banda ni applicable kepada generasi nina je, but clearly kepada generasi mama jugak.

love,

mama's girl and nina's sister

facewarned

look what the computer is capable of doing now

oh great. now even the computer can detect? (-.-'')
pfft.

shooh-go away-don't make me miserable

author

perfect two :)

This song(lyric) is dedicated to the love of my life :)


Got this from a bestie, she suggested me to post it up here so it can be shared with my dear readers :)

Auburn- Perfect two

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya No..
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two








p/s: i love you to bits. please remember that, my baby :)






yours,

me

this is so imran

Date: 01 November 2010
Time: 9.40pm
Place: Playground Taman Gasing Indah, PJ



facts of the celebration:

- imran came back from gys publicity drive at around 8pm++
- yasmin was in UM photostating some stuffs
- yasmin called imran, because imran's phone got barred ;) asked him whether he wants to meet her.
- imran said yes, but told yasmin that he doesn't want to got out. too tired.
- yasmin thought if she can't take imran out for his birthday celebration, it would be nice if she can bring the celebration to imran :) :)
- yasmin wished for a cake, and taraaa! its there on the co-pilot seat of her car ;P
- yasmin arrived at imran's place.
- imran was touched by her actions, being 'difficult difficult' :)
- yasmin wanted to go home. it was 9.25pm.
- imran wanted to celebrate with yasmin.
- yasmin agreed, they went to a nearby playground.
- imran loved the cake :)

ruling:

imran thought yasmin was sweet :)

imran & yasmin both knew the cake was sweeter ;)





imran loves yasmin :)
yasmin loves imran :)









yours truly,

me

2nd november 2010 :)

another date, another birthday, another post.hee..



happy birthday sweetheart! :)






semoga awak semakin kacak bergaya, sakit belakang recover cepat2, smoga buat byk2 duit, semoga awak semakin buat saye jatuh cinta dgn awk setiap kali nampak awk kat tv, make great movies, menari dgn sgt gagah :D






p/s: dear sweetheart oh my hero, eventhough currently that other 28 year old guy managed to take my breath away, you're always the first in my fantasy list and please oh please make me remember you always.








this post is dedicated to my first love oh ultimate love hahaha :D








your biggest fan,

yasmin

that big two-zero in november

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear imran baby i love you you're 20 and i love you more
happy birthday to you

:)

this year is not last like year. not at all. as i am typing this, i am having thoughts of the celebration we had for your birthday 011109. i bet you still remember we were at genting highlands a day before, shouting our lungs out and doing silly silly stuffs just to let the tension out. and on your birthday, butterflies were all around, literally :) that was our first time celebrating your birthday :)


just so you know, i have no plans for you this year. not until my works are done, and not until your works are done. sorry sayang. you told me you don't mind not having any celebration as you are used to not having any celebration. but i guess that's one of the purpose i entered your life, to make sure you are happy with me, and to make sure i can make you happy :) so we'll plan something alright, at least before i go back home where we'll start counting days to meet again :) baby, i pray for all the good things to happen to you, i pray the best of everything for you. if i am allowed to give my lucks and happiness to you, you know i won't hesitate. 2-0 is a big number syg, it comes with great responsibilities. *although most of the times you really act as responsible as an older guy that's why i can't stop loving you. sorry gf awk mmg gila oh yeah yeah yeah

happy birthday baby

people, don't betulkan ur screen's exposure setting.
mmg takkan nampak rupa dia ;)

love,

your yasmin <3>