the time phase

during school days:


min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : take yourself, on the table in my room.

min : thank you papa.



university level:


min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : dah masuk duit in your ambank account.

min : yeay! thanks papa.



during attachment:

min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : pegi withdraw.

min : okay papa (-.-'')





*please note that my sentence had always been the same since school days. saya yang tak berubah atau pun papa yg pandai mengelak sekarang? adoi.

p/s : betul lah, zaman sekolah adalah zaman paling best. heh. how fast time flies kan? :)









love,

yasmin mohd

stranger

okay i get it. you first saw me at the camp about 4 years ago. i know that you were the one among others that left chocolates on my dining table then, almost every week without fail. so my friends and i talked about boys, including you. so you have good looks. and yeah until now i still think that you have good looks. i know you asked my friends about me, and you even secretly peeked into the guys' memorial book so that you can know more about me. we were 18. i understand how it felt back then, we were all placed under one roof and of course, at that age, crush happens. and popularity was not something that i expected throughout that 3 months (or less). nevertheless, thank you. and i know, you know that i treated everyone equally at that time, and my goal was to go through those 3 months, be back home and spend the money that was deposited. i have no problem with you then.

lets see whats the problem, shall we?

you tried to approach me by giving all those chocolates, but you never make an effort to approach me face-to-face. and after a while, you freaked me out. we were not friends. we were never friends. later, you asked for my number from my friends, which i told them not to give. that freaked me out. i don't know you. i never knew you. after a while, i never heard about you, not anymore.

suddenly out of the blue, you requested to be friends on facebook. let me make this clear. i don't approve you not because i don't like you at all, its because i don't know you, plus the fact that you freaked me out the first time. and i don't approve the people that i don't know. facebook is too personal, that i don't find it wise to share all my pictures and my personal life with somebody who is a stranger. that's why i don't approve your friend request, if you still wonder.

when i ignored your request, i thought everything is fine already. its a clear message you see, when someone don't want to be friends with you. but, no. instead you fb messaged my boyfriend and acted all nice. told him that you saw me here and there, just like a stalker. i read all the messages, and you are wrong when you think my boyfriend would be secretive about this. he doesn't keep secrets from me. until now we still fail to understand why would someone do anything like that. after 4 years, you still freak me out!

i blocked you from my fb. but somehow you managed to track down my blog and started to leave comments which are in no relation to my post. oh boy, you just don't understand, do you? using those freaky names. tell you what, i'm not gonna delete any of your comments, as i want you to read them back after you read this post, so that you realise how freaky and irrational you were. and for your information, don't think by doing all that you'll seem important to me, because you are insignificant to me. ok lets be honest. a girl may think you're sweet, pursuing her even after 3 years, but thats it. let me repeat, after a while, you freak me out.








i don't know how to make this clearer and i hope the words i used are simple enough for you, and i sure hope that you are smart enough to get this message in your thick skull. maybe, just maybe, i thought i should let you message me on fb, but after what you commented, i guess its a big no no. if you have realised and you are sorry, maybe we can be friends. and fyi, my boyfriend might seem like he doesn't care, thats because he knows that you are nobody to me. so please, have some respect towards him.

-yasmin-

i'm attached - week 1

my attachment program has finally started. its true what they say, life goes on without us realising it, it waits not a nanosecond later. when i first stepped into my third year of law school, i thought everything was unsatisfactory. the subjects were hard, we had 2 hours of afternoon lectures, 24 hours a day is not enough, project paper was freakingly annoying, exams can't be much of a help, and now, i move to the next phase of life. attachment/practical. i'm not complaining, but wouldn't it be nice if things can pause for a second, let me catch a breath and resume in a slower mode? my friends would agree as much too, i would love to bet on that.


anyway. i'm thankful that i come from a family with legal backgrounds. as much as i wanted to do my attachment with my friends in KL, i had to agree to papa's demand that i do it back home. closer to the family, less costs, and he promised that i will learn so many things, things that some of my friends won't learn during attachment. i remember i even had a small fight with that love of mine, as he thought that 4 months away from each other would be so hard for both of us- he would want to fetch me from work LOL :P i hold papa's and abg's promises and i started my attachment with a heart full of hope. hope to learn as much as i can :)


i occupied my first week in papa's firm in kemaman. oh did i mention, abg is my supervisor? i got my own table, with my own pc. my own space. i consider myself lucky, because i get to ask so many things and be as annoying as i can but still be entertained by him, and being THE yasmin, i always ask so many things. i follow him everywhere. to the court, to do file search, the attitudes of lawyers, getting to know the court clarks, the procedures bla bla bla. so many things. i asked for it, he's so much happy to teach. that's my only big brother, my sweet but sarcastic, crazy, annoying big brother :)


well, my papa a.k.a THE BIG BOSS, he is more concerned about my knowledge. he would call me into his office, bulk me with thick books, and demand for the summary of the book at the end of the day. he gave free lectures on contract and land, and i thought if only he was my land lecturer back when i was in my 2nd year, i wouldn't have hated land as much as i do now. haha. its a good start though. papa would teach me about conveyancing, and abang would teach me about litigation. the first day at work, when papa gave me land books to read, i told him how much i hated land and i'm more into criminal. since then, i see that he tries to make me realise that land is not that bad, and i bought his opinions :)


i'll update on my attachment weekly :) so for the upcoming 5 weeks, i'll be doing my attachment in kuantan and kemaman, alternate weeks. just so i'll be more exposed to both firms, both working environment,s staffs and cases. insyaallah i'll be strong. deep inside, i envy my dear friends for having the opportunity to do their attachment together, go to courts and eye handsome lawyers :p and go for operations with the police. seriously, it could have been me. but again, i'm grateful for what has been decided for me, and i believe, at the end of the day, friends would be the ones to turn to when we practice soon :) so, different experiences from different people would make everything merrier and beyond reach, wouldn't it? :)

happy attachment, dear friends :) miss all of you already! :)

akta ini sgt menarik. ka-ching wise! ;P

my big boss, my handsome old man, he does his own xeroxing :)

my first task. papa used this during his law school years.

and last but not least,

found this in papa's office. it reads, ''sue the bastards!'' ;P

xo,

yasmin mohd

in his absence, i grow stronger

its been two days since imran and the others left for Gunung Tahan. we didn't have a proper goodbye call, it was really late when they departed from UM, and i guess he's occupied and overly excited by the trip, so yeah. but he texted me though, telling me not to be sad whatsoever, and ended it with an 'i love you :)' which its magic will last for 4 days. he promised me that. i sure hope and pray that they are safe and will come back as scheduled, this sunday :)


as for me, thank goodness i'm doing my attachment now, and the work hours actually kept him off my mind for a while. but whenever the phone rings, whenever a text message comes in, my heart hopes that its him on the line. i guess the workloads can't keep him off my mind for too long, can it? no. i don't think so. but my patience is by day, getting thinner. i finally decided to restrain myself from the handphone, at least during the working hours.


its funny you see, i myself told him to off his phone, because the battery won't last for 4 days. the last time he went hiking, he gave me a call when he reaches the peak and he promised to do that this time too. of course, i don't want him to be distracted by the ringtones while climbing, because after all, his safety is what matters most to me. so its better for him to off his phone and focus on his adventurous activity.


i was at the office this morning when suddenly that familiar ringtone caught my attention. imran's name and face came up :) when i heard his voice on the line, that feeling of longing came back. he told me how tired he was, how fun the trip has been, how they had to sleep in the rain yesterday night, and how he misses me so much. my heart jumped with joy, and i know, he knows that i was really happy to hear his voice. he sounded really occupied. but he called me even for a while. he sounded very tired. but he tried to sound happy when he spoke to me. he sounded really excited. but he entertained my excitements. that one minute call, it made my day! now tell me readers, what could that be if its not love? :)

"ok lah, i got to go. i miss you baby"

his words literally made me smile the whole day. i came home for lunch and i told mama about his call. oh boy was i really happy :) they're scheduled to reach the peak soon, and i'll be waiting by the phone for his call, to hear his excited voice, and to be told that he's coming home soon! can't wait! yes, indeed absence makes the heart fonder :) and this heart, its stronger than yesterday, i believe it can handle this.

tembam ;)

p/s: rindu tu indah, kalau org yg dirindui tu merindui kita jugak, tahu? :) cepat balik sayang, saya tunggu awak :)










love,

yasmin

you're like your own sun ☼

looks can be deceiving. there is no doubt on that. i remember the first time when imran and i actually talked, i had no idea that he was like that. erm. like 'that' is obviously not descriptive enough, but i just can't put my feelings into words to describe how i felt at that time. confused, maybe. the only thing that i can be sure of at that time- oh boy you look like hard work. i thought that he's too much to handle. and i'm sure, he had the same thought towards me too.


but who can actually tell that a person who might mean nothing to you one day, might mean everything to you the next day. i didn't foresee that. however, as cliche as it sounds, that is the feeling that i am happy of, that wonderful feeling of loving and being in love. yes, we are in love. believe it or not, between us both, we always talk about this at random times- and its a great feeling you know, knowing that the person you love actually remembers and holds on the sweet memories as much as you do.


of course, we want our love to stay as long as it can, as strong as it can, insyaallah. and hopes dear readers, do require hard work. in my previous monthliversary posts i had mentioned how 'distance' can be the word we hate most. but as you go through life, distance is something that you can't avoid in order to move on with life. we realise that, besides having each other to turn to and be all lovey-dovey to, we also have other relationships that need to be secured. the people who we grow up with, the people we play with, the people we do silly things with. we have our own separate lives, and the thing about love is, we have to accept and adapt with those people because they had existed in our significant half's life way earlier before this thing called love does. and we both are clear about this.







sometimes i just wish to have a boyfriend like edward cullen. protective. towards my safety as a whole, not merely of what i wear. that one guy who will hold me close when eyes around look at me. who will sooth me when i'm scared and vulnerable. who will never let go of my hand even when i say i don't want to be protected. who will pursue me when i walk away with anger. who will look in my eyes and explains everything without a sound. who is cold but has a heart full of undefined love.


but i'm happy with the self-proclaimed jacob black that i am deeply in love with now. the guy who has the warmth of a warewolf. who makes hard things come easy. who is rational in dealing with the insignificant guys who approaches me. who lets me stand on my own but always be there whenever i need him. who feels sad when i ever cry. who feels useless when i feel neglected. who spends time with his other warewolf brothers but still have me in his mind always. who acts cool with others but the complete opposite when he's wih me. who tells me secrets that he won't tell to others.

baby you're like your own sun. so warm, so significant and you make my days seem new each time we meet. and i'm gonna tell you how special you are to me everyday.

happy 19 months ❤


i love you

☺

p/s:

they say a princess and a warewolf can't be together.
lets' prove them all wrong, and make our own fairytale, shall we? :)

yours,

✿ yasmin ✿

fingers back to their routine exercise

hye dear readers! :)


sorry to keep you guys wait for so long. and another sorry for not gonna write so much in this entry. just wanna let you guys know that my third year exams are over, and i'm currently back in kuantan for the long 4 months holiday- not exactly holiday as i'll be doing my attachment starting tmrw. hope everything's gonna be fine :) so many things to be poured out- soooo sooo many things but i'll write one at a time alright. so, i'll be online regularly, and insyallah i'll update my opened diary as frequent as i can (fingers crossed hoping this brain will be filled with creative issues to be blogged about) wishing you all a happy happy holiday :) loveness!




my life has been awesome. hows yours? :)

love,

yasmin mohd