respect. something that everyone wants to have but only few can give. and please, respect is earned, not begged. i had never imagined someone as low as you would come into my life.
nobody falls in love just to fall out of love. and to me, as long as the persons in the relationship know there's still love deep within them despite all the fights, the tears, the ignorance, the screamings and the dissatisfactions, nothing can make them go out of love. i'm thankful for all the ups and downs in my relationship, that everytime it happens, we always want to figure things out. and magically, a sincere 'sorry' at the end of the day can actually cure all the sadness and the dissatisfactions as time goes by. maybe because we are getting better at handling conflicts, maybe because the feelings we had for each other is true. fighting so hard for something i strongly feel in my heart, to point out each other's flaws at each other's faces, somehow it made me realise how much i want us to work, and how much he wants us to work. never let the heart decide when you're not in the right state of mind to decide something. i believe that everyone had worked so hard to get into a relationship, and its is never right to let go of something so sacred, so easily.
here's a confession. everytime when there's a match involving chelsea on telly, the first thing i would do when i wake up from sleep is to go to www.livescore.com to check the result. just to predict his mood for that day. so. yeah.
i had a dream last night. a weird dream. and it made me realise that i should forgive and forget the person that i hate. not because i am better than that person, but because i know eventually i have to forgive and it will make me feel better in so many ways. my mum used to say this, "jangan benci sangat kat orang, nanti ade jodoh pulak" err. please no. its scary to even think about it. yes, i forgive you.