My Opened Diary

bits and pieces

2012-02-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

mampukah kau hadir dalam setiap mimpi buruk ku
mampukah kita bertahan disaat kita jauh

mampukah kau bertahan dengan hidup ku yang malang
sanggupkah kau meyakinkan disaat aku bimbang

- seberapa pantas, shiela on 7

-yasmin-

be jealous, please ♥

2012-01-30T23:58:00.004+08:00

when you believe, believe hard. when you pray, pray hard.

who knows one day it becomes reality :)

the fact is, he responded :)

love,

three days wrapped with love

2012-01-30T17:51:00.009+08:00

20.01.2012- nikah, kak iza's house.

21.01.2012- wedding reception, dewan jubli perak, kuantan.

28.01.2012- kenduri menyambut menantu, my humble house.

alhamdulillah. thank you to all who came, to all who helped, to all who prayed.

much love,

bagaikan sakti

2012-01-22T14:31:00.006+08:00

20/01/2012

''jika ini hakikatnya aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku, menantimu walau sengsara, jika ini ketentuannya. jika ini hakikatnya aku serahkan jiwa dan raga, jika ini ketentuannya, kau kan jadi milikku jua'' ♥

in addition to a naturally annoying brother, i now have an equally annoying sister-in-law. and soon i'm sure they will make little annoying creatures too. but, no matter what, i promise to love them to death. may your love stands strong no matter what abang and kak iza :)

p/s: can't help myself but to cry when i saw the wedding video. too beautiful :') alhamdulillah :)

love,

your annoying sister

sparks is sometimes overrated

2012-01-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday was imran's and my 27th sixteenth together. things changed. i would not say we have changed, as i believe that as one gets comfortable with another person, he or she starts to show the original quality within. i guess that is just normal. but i also believe that as time goes by, we become mature in so many other things, and a part of being matured is to accept another person's strengths and weaknesses. that is what i am trying to do, and i hope i'm doing it the right way.

the holiday has already started and i am back in kwantown already, for over one week. and i must say that i am getting used to this long distance relationship that i found it to be so difficult at first. again, things changed. imran too, proudly (although he had always been the cool one) had shown a progress in dealing with this distance. yeay to that.

i had always thought that the longer you are with someone, the more you will love that person. and it would be such a waste if the long period of time spent is thrown away just because one of you wants to call it quit. you both had agreed to get into the relationship in the first place, so by right you both should agree to split, if it ever comes to mind. its rather sad when things don't prolong just because one person decides that it should be over. i am reminding myself as well, that the future in in the almighty's hands, and what we can do is pray, pray and pray so that things will work. and imran, you know that i never stopped praying for us.

anyway. at 11.35pm yesterday he called me and until 11.59pm we were still arguing who should say 'happy monthliversary' first. haha. honestly, i did not expect him to remember the date. i got used to it already. *rolls eyes* but he remembered anyway, just that he kept me waiting and tortured my heart only to surprise me that he remembered it. to me, that's sweet.

happy monthliversary my imran

yep, sparks still there.

p/s: i had a great life before i met you, but it gets better when you came. i love you.

yours truly,

yasmin

gift, redeemed. dessert, redeemed.

2012-01-12T20:54:00.003+08:00

he makes faces almost everytime whenever i talk about makeups. he ignores when i show interest in makeups. and he answers back everytime saying how much he will not get me one as he thinks i have too many already, and no matter how pale i look i still have the look that he loves- the 'me' look. thus, when he got me this for my birthday, i thought that nothing can be more selfless than this.

thank you sayang. i love this gift, i love you more ♥

yours,

.saye.

pumping rapidly

2012-01-07T22:54:00.003+08:00

kenapa hati saya dupdap dupdap je ni. sejak dua hari lepas. excited sangat nak jumpa si cinta hati mungkin. oh how i miss you bee.

p/s: nak redeem birthday present yeay! nak dessert jugak please :D

love,

nandini

don't remind me of things that i don't want to remember

2012-01-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

its been a long time. you have your life and i have mine now. but whatever happened is still fresh here *pointing to the heart* and the wound never really went away. i am happy now, i can't be thankful enough with what i have now, and i am just so comfortable of what we have now, eventhough whenever you get into contact, i feel something. not like i used to feel, but something else. a normal feeling between friends, which i am really positive of. but let me tell you again, the scar is still there, which means that the wound never really went away. so why suddenly out of no where, you come again and add salt to that wound? have you not have any heart? don't you think that you are being so immature to do that? honestly, i had never regretted what we had. never. you said so too. but now, why suddenly you say the things that showed regret? i am not angry, no i'm not. but i am disappointed. disappointed because you acted that way. please, don't remind me of things that i don't want to remember. i have had enough last time, and i don't want to feel that pain anymore. i know you'll be reading this, so please. know your limits if you still want this friendship.

p/s: don't make me cry again after all these years.

-yasmin-

let the chalk board do the talking

2012-01-05T23:12:00.020+08:00

well what do you know. since i went into college, this is my first time celebrating my birthday at my home in kuantan, and this is my first time celebrating my birthday without my regular people back in kl :) much to my surprise, the people near me had made today special, so special that i cannot express enough how touched i am with their efforts :) to my surprise, the spontaneous idea of baking my own cake came alive when gen and mochtar, together with abg fadli decided to spend their precious time to bake cake for me(with me). mochtar is such a great cook :) and the cake he made(we made) ;P was awesome. and ehem. gen and i decorated the cake and wallah that was the most pinkylicious double layered chocolate cake i ever had for my birthday. oh how i love chocolate cakes :)

gen knitted some wrist bands for me which are so lovely, customized with the colour that i chose :) sweet :) later after the cake was ready, we went to teluk chempedak to celebrate yeay! :) we sang, we took pictures, we sit and posed on the beach. as i thought that the celebration would end there, abg fadli and mochtar told us that we should go to the zoo. haha. i'm 23 years old today but i can't be more excited ;P

when papa and abang came home, we all went for my birthday dinner :) another cake teehee! :) oh ehem, my siblings got me a birthday card, and my little angel got me two black pens. maybe bcoz i told her yesterday that i have not gotten pens for my upcoming exam, and she couldn't be more thoughtful, can she :)

i realise that my life does not only evolve on myself and my own personal emotions, but my life actually evolves around the people who care enough about me. my family and my friends, who tried their very best to make sure that i am the most happy person in the whole wide world on my birthday, who turned my tears into histerical laughter, who understands my feelings just by looking into my eyes. these people, they cheer me up. and thank you for that, loves.

yours truly,

the 23 year old yasmin :)

before the day ends

2012-01-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

i had a great day. with a bunch of great people. went to see a great movie. and ended up bursting into great laughs. now, all i am waiting for, is for that one phone call from that one person that i never let off my mind.

on another note,

kalau dulu, bila cuti start;

i: jom skype tonight?

m: okay, same time alright? see you.

now;

m: bile kite nak skype?

i: entahlah.

i guess this is bound to happen. i just hope that he will be online tonight, at least to be the first to wish me, like he had done for my past 3 birthdays. i truly hope so. if you're reading this, i want you to know that i waited.

p/s:

i managed to fit into a manequin-sized dress that mochtar and gen brought to our house just now, and oh boy it can make me smile so wide ;) not bad, yasmin. not bad at all ;)

yours truly,

yasmin mohd

there are two sides on a coin

2012-01-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

i don't know why somehow nowadays i don't really know how to differentiate a compliment and a tease. especially when now, looks like everybody i meet would mention it.

dilemma. *sigh*

chin up.

2012-01-03T15:38:00.002+08:00

i may watch too many hindi movies. as a matter of fact, i speak them. ask the people around me. but it doesn't mean that i don't dig reality. i always do. so don't tell me that i live in fantasy when you yourself don't put your feet in reality. i maybe vulnerable, but i know what i should and should not do. to put in one sentence, everything i hold is everything i can't let go. and i'm a big girl, which you should already know by now that as much as you don't like people to decide for you, i don't like anyone to decide on what i should do.

p/s: don't try to get into my head by saying bad things about someone that i know too well by now. that would show how low you are.

yours truly,

min

sick.of.your.attitude.

2012-01-02T23:16:00.005+08:00

now you start to treat me like dirt. teach me to curse and i'll do it on your face first hand.

dua, kosong, dua belas

2012-01-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

i shall now see what 2012 has in store for me. and i'm not that eager to know it all, just yet.

a new life, a new beginning

tell me what lies ahead waiting for me

a new life, a new beginning

i'm ready for my world, my destiny

in my life i have seen the sunshine

in my life i have felt the rain

through the livid, through the fire

i have been through life's sweet gain

life is strange, i need a change

happy new year, peeps.

love.

when the curtain falls

2012-01-01T20:11:00.009+08:00

time neither waits for anything, nor for anyone. today is already the 1st january 2012. quoting a dear brother, danial jazmy, " i remember 2011 like it was yesterday." please laugh, i find this funny in its own way. anyway. i believe that people tend to make some new year resolutions (if that is what they call it) but i am not in that bunch. not because i don't have aims, but it will be just too many to list down, and when written down and not fulfilled, i'd feel like a loser. all i;m saying is, it might work for others, but i'm pretty sure it doesn't work for me.

entering a new year, all i can think of is, it obviously means that we are a year older. the grey part is, how can age define a person. this is something i don;t know just yet, something that i believe, differs form one person to another. as for me, i choose to look at the treatment that i get from the people around me- to see whether i have changed, or they have changed as time goes by.

2011 had taught me a lot. a lot. i almost lost the opportunity to step ahead with my beloved friends, i almost got myself into a totally alien field that is not related to my subject at all, i almost tripped by my own emotions, and that one thing i almost did was, i almost forgot how to be a forgiving person- something that my parents had taught me for 22 years by now. alhamdulillah, i stepped back into reality as soon as it bites (or pushed/knocked on the head/shouted at) *pondering* anyway. i got through all that, still standing and able to smile despite the pain and sufferings that almost got me on my knees.

papa and mama, you don't know how much i owe you, i'd trade my life for you if i need to. my blood related siblings and non-related siblings, i'd be lost without your love and care. and last but never least, my backbonelike boyfriend for the support and shoulder i cried on (literally and not literally) you know i appreciate all that :) i'd say my 2011 was well spent, both with the sweet and bitter things, which actually makes me stronger in so many ways.

p/s:

got a new name towards the end of 2011- nandini.

and you guys should NOT call me that.

love,

the name is yasmin, now and forever.

off you go

2011-12-29T20:58:00.002+08:00

respect. something that everyone wants to have but only few can give. and please, respect is earned, not begged. i had never imagined someone as low as you would come into my life.

i don't want you anywhere near me. be gone.

cut and paste

2011-12-25T00:36:00.002+08:00

nobody falls in love just to fall out of love. and to me, as long as the persons in the relationship know there's still love deep within them despite all the fights, the tears, the ignorance, the screamings and the dissatisfactions, nothing can make them go out of love. i'm thankful for all the ups and downs in my relationship, that everytime it happens, we always want to figure things out. and magically, a sincere 'sorry' at the end of the day can actually cure all the sadness and the dissatisfactions as time goes by. maybe because we are getting better at handling conflicts, maybe because the feelings we had for each other is true. fighting so hard for something i strongly feel in my heart, to point out each other's flaws at each other's faces, somehow it made me realise how much i want us to work, and how much he wants us to work. never let the heart decide when you're not in the right state of mind to decide something. i believe that everyone had worked so hard to get into a relationship, and its is never right to let go of something so sacred, so easily.

pray.

yours truly,

stay

2011-12-13T13:14:00.005+08:00

"awak, orang kata saya boleh pergi jauh in this field"

"alaa. jangan la pergi jauh dari saya bee"

"i won't" :)

that gesture.

p/s: saya tak pernah fikir pun nak pergi jauh dari awak :)

love,

yasmin

score

2011-12-07T12:29:00.003+08:00

here's a confession. everytime when there's a match involving chelsea on telly, the first thing i would do when i wake up from sleep is to go to www.livescore.com to check the result. just to predict his mood for that day. so. yeah.

oh me oh my.

yasmin

i just can't get enough

2011-12-06T12:38:00.011+08:00

although i prefer the books better, i just can't seem to wait for the movies.

how about you?

when you can live forever, what do you live for?

the next chapter begins.

it all begins.. with a choice.

forever is only the beginning.

four down, one more to go.

when you can live forever, is there anything worth dying for?

look at these official movie posters. they get better everytime, no?

i'm a sucker for edward. ok that sounds so wrong ;D

forgive and forget

2011-12-06T12:13:00.003+08:00

i had a dream last night. a weird dream. and it made me realise that i should forgive and forget the person that i hate. not because i am better than that person, but because i know eventually i have to forgive and it will make me feel better in so many ways. my mum used to say this, "jangan benci sangat kat orang, nanti ade jodoh pulak" err. please no. its scary to even think about it. yes, i forgive you.

love,

yasmin

aku gile

2011-11-13T17:45:00.002+08:00

aku gile

the end

-aku-

get it straight this time

2011-11-10T19:43:00.005+08:00

well, here's the general rule if you don't already know. when you accept somebody as your friend, you ought to accept their past too and don't hold it against them later. when you accept somebody as your friend, you are not supposed to feel all big and clever that your friend would feel stupid and underappreciated. when you accept somebody as your friend, you don't talk bad and make up stories just to show that you are better in any way. now lets see if those easy words can get through your thick skull, you can't be all oblivious to not notice this, can you?

i'm done. for now.

yours sincerely,

a friend

so now i speak

2011-11-09T20:05:00.004+08:00

there. there. i was always put in a position where i don't say anything about something that i don't like, just because i want to keep the good terms with the people around me. the strong will to keep my tongue to myself, just so i won't hurt anyone else, just so things will not get uglier. maybe i was raised that way. the more rational approach. the attitude to solve a problem, rather than making it hard on anyone, anyone at all. not that i'm already very happy with everybody around me, not that i'm happy with everything that goes on around me. but its my upbringing that made me who i am today, a person who is very optimist, to try to understand people's behaviours, and to work my best so that things will not turn uglier than it had been.

but no matter how hard i try to be the rational one, i will eventually come to a point where i will be tired. tired of being stabbed, of being judged, of being condemned, of being distanced, of being used. tired of being the one who always keeps a sweet face in front of people who stabbed me, tired of being the one who always have to be the first to put effort just so the tense will not prolong. i am darn tired, and i am not happy. if only you are in my shoes, or have been in the same situation, maybe you will understand a little, if not much.

don't question my commitment, don't question my effort. i know how to do work and i know how you tend to show off. please, don't let me question yours because i can definately do that and make you shut up at the end. i'm capable of that, and the reason i'm not doing it is because i prefer to show respect rather than finger pointing. sorry, i was not raised that way. maybe this is my emotions talking, but its better that way because i can indeed think rationally and lay down rational reasons to counter you. oh yeah, those attitude, keep them to yourself please.

yours truly,

yasmin

on being bold

2011-11-09T19:53:00.004+08:00

love is a thing for two. but there's always a slut who doesn't know how to count.

ever heard the word respect? know your limits, have some respect please.

.yasmin.

twoo hot to handle

2011-11-08T13:57:00.003+08:00

you can see him wearing armani almost everywhere. yes, because those piece of perfect clothes fits perfectly on his perfect body. yes, i do realise that at this point i had used the word 'perfect' too many a time, but the term 'perfection is boring' would be too wrong if used on him. i sounded a little obsessive, didn't i? maybe. but i guess i should do some justice and give credit to this man for working hard to maintain his alleged perfection. and let me tell you something, he had that perfection since the start.

i remember his first movie that i saw was pyaar, ishq aur mohabbat. followed by dil hai tumhara. then came dil ka rishtaa. and fox. and his special appearance in don and kabhi alvida naa kehna amazed me, and as expected, in housefull he put on such an amazing performance (oh you should see the song dhanno, he danced very erm yummy :P) oh oh even when he potrayed an old man character in om shanti om, he was smokin' hot. as a father in we are family, i think nobody else would do better :) and oh oh how could i forget, his breath taking performance (++ physic erm erm) in ra.one. did i mention that i literally shouted with amusement when he came into the big screen? yeah, everytime. and oh yeah, i did mention that i my previous post :D the point is, i'm now sure that he is indeed capable of making it to the top 10 list of actors in bollyood ;) i know he is in my top3 now <3 btw, i'm typing this as i'm watching asambhav.

one is too much to handle. can you imagine two of him? *faints*

mehr jesia is such a lucky soul ;)

well, i literally went through half oh his movies earlier, but that's not what i intended when i started typing. the thoughts just came and voila, one long paragraphs on his movies. heh i need to organise my writing soon :P

p/s: i might just make a birthday entry for him starting this year, on the 26th nov ;) no, i didn't already know that. i googled it ;)

yours truly,

you make me stay

2011-11-07T17:26:00.002+08:00

you won't know how deep i feel for you, and i won't know how deep you feel for me.

but one thing we can both be sure is that, this love we have is surreal. i love you.

yours,

for thee sexay

2011-11-02T13:25:00.011+08:00

2nd november 2011

shahrukh khan's 46th birthday

at 46, you still gives me jitters. have a great life ahead, please produce great movies, please be healthy so that you can produce more great movies after that. in case you come accross this piece of short writing, please know that i adore you to bits. have a good life ahead shahrukh :)

2009, 44th :)

2010, 45th :)

-46th?...-

your biggest fan,

yasmin mohamad

2-NE-1

2011-11-02T13:25:00.006+08:00

01/11/11. the date my heart keeper turns 21 years old. his legal day, so to say. the date he was born in a clinic allocated somewhere around jalan tunku abdul rahman in KL, the centre of KL. klinik sambhi.

this is my third time celebrating his birthday, and as always, he doesn't seem to care much. he hid his birthdate on facebook (somehow i spoiled his plan because i did a birthday shoutout on my status- sorry sayang lain kali kasitau la ape plan awk hee) :P , and he slept quite early the night before. i called him at 11.45pm and he sounded so tired and he told me that he wanted to go to bed early, as he will be having his replacement tutorial the next morning. so we didn't speak long, but i was the first to wish and sing him the birthday song :)

this year i got him an ice-cream cake :) of course it came as a surprise to him, he didn't really expect me to tag him along to get his cake that i had ordered a few days before his birthday. he had nvr had an ice-cream cake all his life, and he had nvr tasted any ice-cream cake before this. so yeah. i got him his favourite ice-cream yeay! :) however, due to the overload works, i didn't hv the time to make him a birthday card, and he demanded for it. cett mintak mintak pulak ape kes. hmmph! ;P

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MY IMRAN

dear sayang,

ape yang saya nak cakap semuanya saya dah cakap dalam text and dah cakap to you when we met. i really hope you love the cake, i really hope that you are happy. saya tahu awak selalu cakap awak tak kisah kalau tak celebrate, awak tak kisah kalau takde present, awak tak kisah kalau takde birthday dinner, as long as kita jumpa everyday. semua tu saya tahu. tapi awak kena tahu jugak yang saya suka buat semua tu untuk awak, saya tak rasa ia menyusahkan langsung and in fact saya rasa happy bila tengok awak happy. and that impression you had on your face everytime my surprise menjadi, that was really priceless. i'm really thankful to have a boyfriend like you, yang tak kisah sangat benda2 mcm tu, tapi if awak suka buat semua tu untuk saya, awak kena expect saya akan buat benda yang sama jugak to you. i love you.

love,

princess yasmin

its all in the pronounciation

2011-11-02T13:21:00.004+08:00

if i were this blog, i would definately block myself from signing in, as a form of protest, for not having updates for such a long time! but thank goodness, computers cannot program itself ;P i believe that i deserve a hard smack on my cheek *dush!* and alright, now lets just get back to writing before i feel the numbness and decided to stop again. just so you guys know, i had typed this post half way and had to stop due to workloads that doesn't seem to become less. having said that, i believe that i should use this limited time to do some updates :)

anyway. happy belated diwali everyone. no matter whether you celebrated it or not, i suppose that diwali means good wishes, and everybody should be wished as such. my family came to KL and spent one whole week here with me, and luck was on my side as the classes were cancelled yeay to that! :) so. since my family did not have any specific plans to visit relatives whatsoever, we decided to go and grab the premier tickets for the movie Ra-One :) yeay! yes, i've mentioned about this movie in one of my previous posts, and yes my favourite actors acted in that movie. tripple yeays! ;) basicly, we celebrated diwali by watching Shahrukh Khan <3 and we enjoyed it to bits! ehem, managed to get imran to watch that movie with me, and he was such a sport, for understanding my obsession n towards Shahrukh Khan <3 oh did i mention that it was our 4th hindi movie date? yup, 4 already, looking forward to the 5th, this december ;) shhh ;)

"ra-one" is pronounces as ravaan which means the devil in the hindu belief.

"g-one" is pronounced as jeevan which means life in hindi.

since this movie was kept really secured before it was released, i did not know much about the storyline then. as expected, it came as a shock, a pleasant shock i mean, to have watched this movie without a slightest clue about the storyline. the suspense element was there ;) and i literally shouted and amused when arjun rampal appeared in the second half of the movie. ya rabbi. kacaknye dia. hot nye body dia. macho nye suara dia. sexy nye mata dia. *drools. and pardon me darling for saying this, i thought arjun really caught the attention and stole the limelight from shahrukh. not many villain can be so attractive you see, but arjun was an exception ;) oh, kareena was super hot as usual, especially in the item songs, plus the creative choreography :) but still, Shahrukh's presence can never be interrupted each time he appeared on screen :)

all in all, congrats anubhav sinha for making a creative and impressive film, its a good start for this genre to be in bollywood in future *clap3* ok nak tahu tak, after "My name is Khan", this movie is the next movie to be released in many cinemas in Malaysia :) *thumbs up!

trivia: Ra-one is the 2nd most expensive film in bollywood, after Enthiraan.

i love shahrukh,

it felt like it happened yesterday

2011-10-19T12:09:00.004+08:00

as cliche as it may sounds, it felt like it happened yesterday. it felt that it was just yesterday that we met, talked, fought, screamed, teased and annoyed each other. and as much as i would want to keep it simple, i just can't express how much you mean to me, how attached you are to my heart now. well, you know it. the changes in us, we both know what they are. just like you, i'm looking forward to many many many more years to be together with you. i hope the gift will not take you away from me, i'll make sure it will not ;) for your love and care through these two years, i can't thank you enough and i want you to know that you mean a lot to me.

p/s: ketam was super sedap, rabbits were super cute, and the pony was super duper friendly.

ehem ehem don't forget the "siakap senohong, gelama ikan duri" :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US

HAPPY TWO YEARS ANNIVERSARY IMRAN

I LOVE YOU

yours,

yasmin

alter ego

2011-10-07T17:23:00.003+08:00

well, bukan nak cakap ape la kan ;)

yours truly <3

my heart skips a bit

2011-10-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

mock. that's what we do best. currently in a tensed state of mind, but nevertheless very much excited. praying for smooth performance for all 6 shows. two down, 4 to go. the originals, i'm glad we still stay. *hugs

till then,

yasmin

just some words

2011-09-19T12:09:00.002+08:00

my busy days of sleepless nights, skipping meals and making stern face has ended. shall update really soon, too much to write on :)

love you all,

yasmin mohamad

its never too late to stop

2011-09-06T10:21:00.007+08:00

nobody says its easy, but you know its not impossible

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setiap lapan saat, seorang mati akibat penggunaan tembakau. dan secara purata, setiap batang rokok yang dihisap akan memendekkan sekurang-kurangnya lima minit hayat seseorang.

saya tak nak orang-orang yang saya sayang jadi seorang daripada mereka.

think about your family, think about your loved ones, and think about your future children.

p/s: just a point to ponder. everyday that you wake up alive means a chance for you to change, so when the almighty helps you everyday, why can't you try to help yourself?

yours sincerely,

yasmin

moving into another phase

2011-09-05T09:41:00.007+08:00

i was 14 years old when mama gave birth to nina. i already knew the meaning of responsibility, i knew that i as the big sister should look out for my younger siblings. when some of my friends were still playing with dolls, for me, nina was my doll. i learnt to give bath to her, learnt to change her diapers, carried her around, played with her, put her to sleep. maybe i was overly excited, as my younger sister is only a year younger than me, and all we did was play together, share outfits, and fight for attention. lol. in short, i get to see nina grow up in front of me, and that experience is something nobody can take out of me.

yesterday night, the little one and anis were playing saidina, and she was busy arranging her saidina money and lot cards. its such a nice thing to see her grow up, from playing rattles, to playing uno or simple 'happy family' card, and now she plays saidina and monopoly which needs her to think, and she will be the happiest person on earth to read the 'chance' cards. she grew up so fast, i knd of miss the time when she was really little that when anybody asked her to sing and dance, she would do it without hesitation. not anymore ;) earlier that day, i played with her too, and i bought about 10 lots. and everytime she stopped at an empty lot, she will buy that lot no matter what the price is. and when i asked why, she answered, "nina nak lawan kak min, kak min ade 10 tanah, nina baru 7." isn't that just cute? clearly she doesn't understand the essence of playing that kind of game, yet. haha.

yesterday night also, my parents and abang were discussing about his upcoming wedding plans. everything, from the lists of guests to the food to the music, decorations and what not. they talked about pelamin. somehow mama said, for guys, menyambut menantu, we don't really need a pelamin for bersanding. we went "alaaaaaa tak cantik la kalau takde pelamin" and then mama said, "nanti anak perempuan kahwin baru la kita buat pelamin." suddenly, nina shouted-

"yeay!! nanti nina kawin ade pelamin! yeay! yeay!"

she literally jumped out of joy. it was something unexpected of her. and of course, we burst to a big laugh! haha! mama tak maksudkan dia pun. this little kid, pandai sangat nak langkah bendul eh? ;P hee. seriously, i think she grew up too fast. i can clearly remember the days when all she did was sleep and her big brothers and sisters would go make her cry just so we can hear her voice. alhamdulillah, we still share the same love until now :)

this girl, she might seem very shy at first. but mark my words, she will amaze you with her naughtiness. she even dah pandai bahan imran ;) she is 8 years old now, but she talks like an adult. maybe its because she is surrounded by adults and she is the little one. did i mention to you that nina puasa penuh since she was 6? yeah she did :) how fast time flies, i wonder if we will still kiss her as much, hug her as much and tease her as much ;)

her favourite pose- muka buruk.

p/s: muka buruk nina lagi cantik drpd muka buruk imran :P

hugs and kisses,

min

can you feel the love?

2011-09-03T22:48:00.003+08:00

♥ we love each other too much, its unbreakable ♥

this, defines love :)

-papa and mama's girl-

counting days

2011-09-03T22:29:00.003+08:00

my raya won't be complete until i see si jantung hati. please come soon, love ♥

awak, cepatlah datang. cepatlah datang.

yours,

the pilot turns 23

2011-09-01T09:46:00.006+08:00

dear muizz,

i know you will read this, i know you'll be all red. but this is what i do every year since i blogged (eceh padahal baru satu post je pasal ni) :P anyway. i suppose this is just a little something that i thought i should do :)

so you came back this year, alhamdulillah. i actually looked forward to see you during puasa, maybe have a buka puasa session but as you know, both of us were occupied. taulah anak ibu tu nak berkepit je dgn ibu dia kan :P (tyna yg ckp ni) hehe. well, you called me on raya eve, telling me that you want to drop by to hantar baju for me to gosok. amboih! i ni ade mcm muka bibik kat indon tu ke hah? amboih! when i went to your house on 2nd raya haritu, i had a lot to tell! a lot! and i am really glad that you understand and you listened without showing that you are bored and what not. and for catching up with my speaking speed, not many can do that ;) hehe. for making me blush depan ibu, i paid back cash kan. padan muke kamu!

i hope you enjoyed your time at my place, and sorry sebab buat kamu segan. you know how my family is kan ;) that magic show yg cikai tu pun, at least that made nina amazed, i think she was happy too. except that she kept saying imran is better in this, in that. sorry muizz, nina pun kaki buli jugak mcm kakak dia ni. hehe i had a good time bullying you and singing that happy birthday song sekuat hati ;P

happy 23rd birthday muhammad al-mu'izz

cupcake by abg fadli, it tastes good :)

may Allah bless you always, dimurahkan rezeki, jumpa gadis2 comel di indonesia, naik pangkat cepat, kumpul banyak duit, kasi min duit raya, and be blessed with a happy family and true friends. thank you for all advices, i know i can count on you even when you are away :)

may our friendship last forever.

sukses ya!

p/s: of course i remember your birthday, silly.

since 16,

min

setahun sekali

2011-09-01T09:38:00.010+08:00

alhamdulillah, syawal is here, again :) and alhamdulillah, i'm still healthy and strong :) one thing about raya that i will never forget would be the time that early in the morning before raya, papa would go knocking on our room doors, turn on the lights and turn off the fan so that we won't sleep comfortably. as a result, we will definately wake up and start doing our chores :) that always works.

again, one quality that my parents had instilled in us all would be, how important raya is. how important that we can still celebrate raya all together, all 6 of us, with our parents. this would be abang's last raya-ing alone with us, as he is waiting for his big day soon :) the bond between us all is too strong, its unbreakable. and we are always thankful for that. raya eve. that's the time when papa would suddenly be very particular about the cleanliness of our home, so that when people come to visit, we won't be ashamed of the habuks and sawangs on our heads ;) seriously, papa would be most particular about those things when raya comes.

on the other hand, my siblings already know what everybody should do. it has been too routine, almost impossible for anyone to forget their 'job scopes' who does what. pasang langsir, gosok baju for the first raya, sapu sawang, lap kabinet, bubuh kuih raya, cuci toilet. everybody knows what to do, without even being asked. alhamdulillah, we have been taught all that, and insyallah we will carry this habit in future :)

raya would also be time to remember others. when to stay at home and expect people to come, who wants what, which uncle would love to have air kosong with his food, which auntie tak makan pedas, which friend suka ketupat palas, which friend to ajak to come to the house, which jiran to visit first, which friend loves to text to wish selamat hari raya, which friend would send raya cards without fail, and which friend would call on raya eve to wish, and to make plans for konvoi :) and this year, i'm blessed to have known so many new kuantan friends :)

somehow, raya brings souls together. and indeed, it shows us who our real friends are- the ones we don't see often but stays at heart. again, its the thought that counts. and i am happy to be blessed with such people.

newbies- abg fadli, elly and wafi :)

a must have, every raya without fail- nadia :)

he came back this year, not the book, the pilot- mu'izz :)

alhamdulillah, these people make me smile.

Happy Raya everyone, maaf zahir batin! :)

p/s: my raya won't be complete until i see him. please come soon.

love,

yasmin mohd

forgetting yesterdays

2011-08-19T08:59:00.003+08:00

we may think we have left the past behind, but it always has a way of catching up to us. though we might want to run away, we are forced to confront our past and the secrets that it buried must come into the light. and then if we are strong, we might be able to move on. yes, we all need to leave the past behind and move on towards the future. and if we are lucky, we will have help in getting there.

sincerely,

tick tock, ticky ticky tock

2011-08-18T13:49:00.004+08:00

i am officially his alarm clock. no, not the nice, humble, type. no, not like the one in Disney's Beauty and the Beast, Cogsworth. i'm slightly an annoying version of him. but i thought that's how an alarm clock should be, annoying ;) its that feeling you know, when your alarm clock won't stop making noise until you really have to wake up from the bed and shut it up. hee. and i believe everytime i called him to wake him up, i succeed. (despite the times when he went out of his room and sleep in the living room later) i give myself a 7/10 for being a good alarm clock. i'm new. i'll learn ;)

p/s: now how many points would you give me, baby? ;p

yours,

min

an august partner

2011-08-16T11:32:00.012+08:00

look into the calendar, look into the calendar. its the 16th of august. alhamdulillah :) i remember the last time i write this kind of post last month, i was in kuching, all emotional and somehow broken because he didn't remember our monthliversary. no, let me correct that. he didn't remember because he was not on track of dates, just because he is like that and has been like that since forever. so i can't totally blame it on him. he didn't even remember important dates like birthdays and registration dates- so how can i possibly blame him for not remembering our monthliversary date. but one thing that he should be credited for would be his efforts to remember sometimes, such as marking our anniversary date in his phone calendar. i've seen it before, accidentally. and i thought that was sweet :')

getting comfortable. this is indeed a hard phase. not because we don't get along, but because we get along so well, too well maybe that sometimes we may tend to take each other for granted. everyday before i go to sleep, i talk to myself. i try to figure out how my day was, how we acted towards each other on that very day. sometimes i feel like i'm not giving enough, and at other times i feel like he is not giving enough. honestly, i feel like we have passed that phase of texting every now and then, asking 'awk tengah buat ape?" or "hari ni bangun pukul berapa?" now i remember what awin told me not too long ago, i even posted it in my previous post but i can't remember which one. hehe. she said something like, ''nanti in future you guys takde nye nak text selalu, tanye ape dia buat smua tu, nnt u akan tau sendiri without asking" indeed, its true.

well this phase i'm in now, is definately one of the hardest but one of the best, too. simply put, we don't have to impress any of us that much anymore, but still we can feel the care and love from each other. and the fact that when we ever fight, we try to settle it before we sleep, just because we both know that both of us will get all emotional and disturbed if either of us got angry earlier that day. well, i must say that my boyfriend is a very considerate guy, despite the days when he really lures me to punch him on his face :P but yeah i'm thankful. even when he said something but he doesn't mean it, i'll detect it that instant *petik jari* and he will admit it later. this goes vice versa. there are also times when he wouldn't know know to deal with conflicts and he couldn't deal with his own emotions, and as a short cut, he'll just leave me broken. but he didn't mean it to be that way, trust me, i know. another thing that i know through time is that there's a sensitive guy behind those ego and those rebellious attitude, that it challenged me to find him and love him and grow strong together, that's what i mean by getting comfortable. alhamdulillah. we've survived so many things, so many crisis together. please pray that we'll stay strong, we still have a long way to go.

1 year and 10 months, still strong :)

i ♥ you imran

p/s: when i logged into my facebook account this morning, at the right corner of my profile there's this one little box on the upper side which states, "my status on this day in 2010" and reads; "Yasmin Mohamad: rain rain go away, come again another day" :P when i refresh my webpage, a slightly similar phrase came up at the same corner which states, "previous status updates on this day in 2010" and what appeared was, "Imran Osman: 10 months, still strong, Yasmin Mohamad". that made me smile :)

love,

no, you don't need a club to do charity ♥

2011-08-14T14:38:00.012+08:00

hye all. for those who don't already know me, my name is yasmin. for the record, i am a people's person. i love to deal with people and i love making friends. guess i just have that positive vibe among people(mostly. heee) but if you must know, there's one side of me which can be quite a hassle sometimes. i click with most of the people that i meet, but sometimes there are also times when i first meet someone, i already know that i can' get along with that person. but i tried to make attempts to get to know that person, but most of the time, my efforts do not produce positive results. well, people differ, maybe that's why. yeah. RARELY, but it happens. you know what i mean? of course you do.

when i first stepped into the law school, i knew that i was going to make more contacts for future purposes. and i promise myself to collect as many experience as possible, before i step out. i remember during my orientation week, i was really attracted to a program at the faculty, called C.O.P or Community Outreach Programme. i was more driven to join that program and to become an educator because my buddy Im was a person with a strong position in it. *dlm hati, ada geng la nnt, takkan rasa out of place. ada org jaga* and the founder of that program is Kak Tinot and Gary *really, this is indeed gonna be awesome ;)* so a few of us signed up for that.

C.O.P has good goals. to educate the less fortunates. some kind of social work. yes, i was attracted mainly because of the aim of the program. but i must admit, i didn't stay long in it nor my close friends, because we thought somehow it restrained us in many ways, and we can't handle the pressure of being told to do things. trip after trip, i feel like i'm just doing what i was told to do, and slowly i lost view of my early intention-to help. it felt more like a responsibility rather than sincere help. i'm not saying that its a bad way to handle a group of this kinds, but it doesn't work for me. so, i left and didn't feel bad. the only thing that i feel bad about was the judgemental people who thought that we were unfit to be in it, when the real problem is not us. and as everybody knows, everybody seems to be satisfied when asked, but they talk bad at the back. no, i'm not like that. so i made a decision to quit. having said all that, its still to me, a really good programme, and perseverance is what every member needs to have. this is what i think, personally and i speak for myself only. i respect those who stays, but i don't blame those who left either. you just don't know how it feels until you feel it yourself.

when my friend nadia hanim invited us to do some charity works, its like a good call for me. i've always wanted to do good to people, and i still have that in heart eventhough i'm not a member of any social works groups. but nevertheless, i realised that i don't need to be credited for the good things that i do. that's not how things work. no, thats not it. and this trip we went to yesterday morning, was an eye opener. orphans, they really touched my heart. they got attached really fast, and that's the hardest part, because we have to leave later. and before we left, the youngest orphan who was an 8 year old girl nearly made me cry, and i believe everybody saw how attached she was to me and some of my friends. masa nak balik, dia berlari to me, salam and hugged me, she said "tak puas la main dgn kakak, tak puas la cium kakak." at that time my heart dropped. terharu pun ada, happy lagi banyak. she is of the same age with my angel nina, and i guess what makes me really easy to handle her antics was my experience i have, handling nina. its a bonus to me.

sent nadia home, and when i got back home, i hugged nina really tight, kissed all over her face and told her everything about what happened. nina was a litle bit jealous i see, thats just logic, as she never had to share me with anyone else kan, even when i got serious with imran pun she started to make sad faces if i ever told her that i want to hv a long phone call with him, or skype. so that's how she rolls, basicly. the bottomline is, appreciate the people that you have around you because you just don't know when they will be gone.

p/s: the wordly matters, you should compare it with the less fortunate ones. you'll definately be grateful with what you have and can never complain.

hugs and kisses,

min

habit turned hobby

2011-08-13T16:24:00.005+08:00

since i was little, i have always loved to write. i remember when i was about 12, i started to work on a short story(without anyone's knowledge) and decided to send it to a magazine, with the hope that it would be published. yes, i went that far just to make people read what i write. so as you can see, blog is a way for me to express my thoughts and feelings, but of course, only to a certain limit. another fact that you might want to know about me is that, since forever, i have this weird habit of having random thoughts. if i'm too lazy to write on a papers or to on my lappy, i would type whatever i have into my phone so that i won't forget to post in in my blog later. again, yeap. thaaaaat weird. so actually if you look into my message folder, you'll see a lot of drafts. well, actually, my beloved phone can make me post things to the internet easily, but i find it more satisfactory if its typed using a lappy. so this weird habit of mine, is now a hobby. now. if only i can be clever enough to get some kachings out of this one. anyone willing to help? :) you know how to contact me :)

p/s: coz its one time too many, i choose to do what makes me happy :)

*thank you all for responses via fb message. i'll reply asap, ok? :) good day! :)

yours truly,

yasmin

mummy knows best

2011-08-10T11:08:00.004+08:00

this morning i acted like a kid. no, really. my eyes were too heavy to wake up for sahur that it took my mum two good calls and a few knocks on my bedroom door to make me realise it was 5 in the morning. all she had to say was.. "min, mama buat lempeng dengan kari daging" and *ting* i automatically got off bed. until now i still wonder how that word, 'lempeng' drove me to be concious. that, or mothers just know how to fish their children.

p/s: the last time i was driven by food to get out of bed was back when i was 11. and that same feeling came up again this morning, now that i'm 22. how. erm. immature.

sincerely,

yasmin

lets talk about feelings

2011-08-09T16:29:00.007+08:00

a man's feelings is a plank of wood. it takes fir to burn it. a girl's feeling is a stack of glasses. tap one and all will shatter at once.

-yunazarai

when you love someone, you must love everything about them, including their weaknesses.

rescue me. not.

2011-08-08T10:24:00.009+08:00

hye darlings, how have you been? :) before i proceed, let me kindly tell you that this post is not entirely of my own, i got this from a reading material, that i believe i should share some relevant points here. however, i will write with my own words, based on my own experience. and this is gonna be long. so buckle up ;)

since i got into a serious relationship, i can't help but to think that time changes people. time changed me, and time changed him. time changed both of us. for the better, of course. but there are also times that i would immediately think he is not the person that i knew back then, someone different. someone i don't know. there, there. isn't it obvious to you that i'm more of a static person, who actually do not comply with changes? yeah, that's what i think about me, too. however, i came to realise that the changes in myself, and the changes in him, is actually a big sign and proof that we are getting to know each other better, the process of getting comfortable with each other. besides, if you can't accept the worst of the person that you love, how on earth could you think that you deserve the best of him? well, logically, a change is indeed essential.

alright now, lets not use me and him as an example. we are too young, too immature and too new in this. lets look into a wider perspective. lets look at long lasting couples, solid couples around us. those old couples that we always see in the park, holding hands even when they're sitting on a bench, those old couples who seems really happy with each other, that they do not need to speak to communicate, they do not need to put their hands all over each other just to show how much they love each other. to me, that's the beauty of an honest, solid relationship.

a healthy relationship doesn't have to be all about the two people involved. it should be built rooted in comfort and trust, eventhough not displayed in conspicuous ways. i myself always believe in true love based on movies and fairytales, but as i grow in time, i become more practical and rational, that fairytales are meant to be fairytales. life is not always a bed of roses, but as long as there's honest love, it will be worth living for. imran said to me once, ''you can't expect what we had last time to be here now and you can't expect what we have now, we would have it 7 years later. but you must know that i love you and it will remain that way, i love you no less." to me, that was really direct and i hated that, but, that got me thinking, really.

solid relationship equals to a healthy relationship, and in a healthy relationship, you should be able to socialise solo. i get to go out on movies with my friends, and he gets to play futsal with his friends. easy, shows that we respect each other's private lives. just because we are together, doesn't mean that we don't have our own lives, no? honestly speaking, if we never did things separately, we'd probably drive each other mad. even we sometimes can get bored with our own shadows, what more with other people. when you're confident about your partner's commitment to you, you don't need, or want to be together constantly. it does actually, tighten the bond between couples. ask me, i'm in a long distant relationship right now. friends ask me how i do it, how could i not care. honestly, there's not even a moment when i don't think about him but this is something that both of us have to deal with, and after a while we don't see each other, when we actually go on a date, the feeling is superb. seriously :) kan bee? :)

lets look deeper, shall we? its rather silly to deny the fact that there are a lot of good looking people in this world we live in. i admit that sometimes i also tend to check out other attractive people around me. no, not that kind of 'head-to-toe-ooh la la' stare, but just a mere look, like how the wind passed our faces. you know what i mean? and i'm a girl. and correct me if i am wrong, guys do it more often. its a gender thingy you see, like of course everyone knows that guys are more attracted to what they see while girls are more attracted to what they hear and read. oh, thats just normal, thats just honest. but guys, having all these said, it doesn't mean you can go around flirting when you're already in a relationship. that's just common sense, here comes the word 'respect' in a sincere relationship.

there are times when my boyfriend would praise any attractive lady who walks by, and i can't say that i feel nothing, but to me, if he were to do it, he should do it with me, together with me. lets have that 'lets compliment pretty ladies and tough hunks together' time. yeah, it would be better if he doesn't at all :P and believe it or not, i will not deny it if i think a lady is attractive. i would be lying if i don't feel jealous whatsoever. even we had a big fight on that issue not too long ago. he also, would make faces and instantly got out of mood if i were to compliment other guys' appearance, he would tell me that he feels insecure. so again, that's just fair to us both. but through time, we learn that our feelings for each other is true and sincere, and as long as there's trust, i believe nobody else can replace any of us in our hearts ;D *wink!

confrontations. its the key to a healthy relationship. every couple have problems. lets not be too shallow and deny that fact. what determines how long the relationship can go on depends on how well you handle the conflicts. forgive and forget, and for heaven's sake, change for better! its always good to tell the partner if you don't feel happy on how you're being treated, on how you feel lonely, on how you want to be respected whatsoever. people forget, thats the reason they need to be reminded. confront and listen to explanations. after all, that's the person who owns your heart that you're dealing with. so who else knows best about your relationship other than you and your partner? a point to ponder. just like you, getting mad and feeling angry is not your partner's hobby- a common sense. so, talk and work things out, and leave the rest to the almighty.

pardon me, i might not be the best person to give these advices, as i am still learning to be a good partner to my significant half. and i too, turn to my besties when i face problems. but i just thought that by reminding others, i am reminding myself as well. and i know my love would read this somehow, so this will also be useful to us both :) of course i love it when my boyfriend and i finish each others' sentences, how we understand what any of us wants just by looking at the face and gestures, how we can be very intuitive of what any of us are doing at a particular hour, how we read each other's minds on certain subjects. but that's not all. these traits actually comes slowly, throughout the relationship itself- through the changes we see in both of us; habits, needs, likes, dislikes. and again let me tell you, a healthy relationship requires hard work. hard, but not impossible :)

p/s:

don't let something good go just because you had a bad time together. think about the sweet memories you have together, wouldn't that be enough to make you stay?

*wah. matang sungguh :P

*one day, imma write books. good books.

love,

yasmin

well, reality bites

2011-08-05T23:28:00.006+08:00

Behind all the joy and laughter, there isn't always a happy person. Sometimes, you try so hard to seem that you're doing fine, but truth has it you're lying to yourself. Perhaps you tend to think that no one notices but the ones that truly care can sense that deep down, you're not the least bit close to being okay. - nad

p/s: coz life's like that.

haan tumhe hum chahte hain

2011-08-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

main agar chup rahon, tujhko hi toh suno
main agar kuch kahoon, ohh teri ho sadaa

main jahan ab jao, tujhko hi sang pao
chahon ki na chaho, ki tu dikhe har jagah

p/s: i miss you baby.

saya takut

2011-08-04T20:42:00.004+08:00

saya takut. for those who knows what i'm going through currently, i thank you for listening. its just so hard to face this phase, because i don't want the same thing to happen again this time around, not after i've been through so many things, met so many people and spent so much time on something that at the end of the day its just not being given credit upon. this is rather frustrating, but i know this is something that i have to go through, i have to be strong of.

takut. takut. takut. more like traumatised by it. the feeling of insecurity over something that i've worked hard on, that i've put efforts on, something that would have been easy if i am able to turn back time, indeed i will resort to a different thing. until today i blame myself for choosing something that i thought i can write best on, rather than something that i can write easily on. i blame myself for that, for being too sure that i would nail it just like that at that time, just because i know a lot about it. little that i know it is indeed really difficult to please other people. yes, someone who says something in front of me, and gives a completely different result later on. i fail to understand why, i pray i would know why.

my boyf has always been the one i turn to, the one i spilled my concerns to. i always told him that i am scared, that i would not know how to face it if the same thing is gonna happen again. until at one point, i can sense that he is getting bored with the same story of me being scared. yes, maybe i'm pushing myself too hard. yes, maybe i'm too scared of something that is not certain yet. but i can't help it. rahim also always told me that i'm always worried for nothing, so did ika. but again, i can't help it. i don't want to feel the same breakdown i felt not too long ago, although i know by thinking about it now would not change anything, but it only will make me less happy.

i'm praying hard. i'm praying hard. i'm praying hard. and now i'm seeking help from all my readers, all my friends, to pray together with me. to pray so that i will be strong no matter what the outcome would be, and to pray so that the same thing will not repeat again. and to pray so that i'm protected from bad people around me. please, pray for me, pray with me. insyaallah, ramadhan is a good month to pray, insyaallah those who prays would be granted.

Ya Allah, please give me strength.

hoping for a miracle,

remind me to remind you

2011-08-01T10:51:00.006+08:00

"O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous," al-Baqarah [2:183]

let us make the best out o this ramadhan, shall we? we might not have the chance to do so anymore. i believe i need to make some self-fixing. how about you? :)

love,

noor yasmin

my ramadhan memories

2011-07-31T11:36:00.008+08:00

alhamdulillah, insyaallah tomorrow i'll be continuing my life as a muslim, in this upcoming ramadhan. ramadhan, the month that muslims fast and the month where the devils are believed to be tied up so that the humans will not be disturbed to perform ibadah. alhamdulillah, i'm 22 and i have the strength to perform this one ibadah that comes once in a year. some people my age still have difficulties to fast, and some of them also had lost the nikmat to fast due to illness and what not. thank you Alllah.

everytime ramadhan comes, i'll always look back to my previous ramadhan, just so that i can correct myself, so that the upcoming ramadhan will be better in many sense, insyaallah :) i am not perfect, sometimes i forget. sometimes i'm too driven by things, by feelings. for that, i always seek forgiveness and i seek strength to overcome those feelings. its funny how things evolve too quickly. but i also can't forget the days when i started fasting- that was back when i was in standard 1. yeap, i started early, that was because my parents would always offer some incentives, to teach us(my brother and i) to fast. and back then, my brother and i would always compete to get the most amount of incentives ;) that actually motivated us to fast, of course at that time i was not able to complete all 30 days, but that prepared me for the ramadhans after that. and the next year, it became more motivating, as my younger sis also joined us for puasa :)

i remembered all of us started to fast for the whole ramadhan when i was 9 years old. yeap, at that time i can only sabar and make myself busy to avoid thinking about food, and during the recess time, i was so happy when teachers praised me for fasting, unlike my friends back then. i can still remember how i eyed a friend's roti kaya because i was too hungry, but when a teacher came to me and praised me for being so strong, my crave for food shut down that instant ;) see, the power of compliments.

as i grow older, i automatically understand that fasting during ramadhan should not be because of the rewards that others will give me, but the rewards that Allah will give me and my family. and i'm the type of person that will do anything for my loved ones, so when an ustazah told me that my family will get pahala as well, that motivated me to fast :) and i started to understand the responsibility to fast when i *ehem. get my periods. no money involved since then- except for baju raya and stuffs la hehe :)

but really, fasting is related to what we have in our minds. that you won't feel hungry, that you want to upgrade your ibadahs, that you would try so hard to avoid from kurangkan pahala puasa, that you won't eat eccessively when you break fast. i mean, as we grow a year older, fasting during ramadhan should be something that you're immune to, that you can handle just like that *petik jari. and insyaallah, to those who still have difficulties to fast, this is the time to actually challenge your minds. and mind you, we are not getting younger, and life can't be so long nowadays. so, try to make the best out of this ramadhan alright? i myself hope and pray that this ramadhan will be better than last year, in many sense.

have a blessed ramadhan everyone! :)

*this will be the ramadhan that imran and i won't spend together, close. no sahur together, no berbuka together. we skyped yesterday night, and reminisced our last ramadhan together, and decided takpelah, kurang sikit dosa insyaallah. itu buat saya lebih sayang, tahu tak? <3

p/s: we make sins everyday. no doubt on that. so why not benefit this ramadhan to tebus balik our sins? insyaallah.

yours truly,

yasmin

i believe souls do meet elsewhere

2011-07-31T11:35:00.002+08:00

there are times when you meet someone, you just feel like you have known them for such a long time. the talks, the same interests, the bond. masyaallah. sometimes i'm amazed by the gift that the almighty had blessed upon me, to have met all the beautiful people, that makes it worth it to be kept as a friend, insyaallah forever. and i do believe that the almighty had set the time for us to meet a certain people, at a certain time. and i'm glad, i have not diverted from this belief.

i believe souls do meet elsewhere :)

smiling,

meen

our tigers actually roar better than lions

2011-07-29T06:55:00.004+08:00

HARIMAU MALAYA.

#khairulfahmi #harimaumalaya - on twitter, this hashtag i still trending until now, at this moment i'm typing this post.

as i had mentioned in my previous post on chal-see, i've never been a big fan of football. never. but what i didn't mention is the fact that i do watch football once in a while, and when the circumstances forces me to do so ;) and i also did not highlight the fact that when i do watch football, i watch it emotionally. haha. i'm a girl, sue me :P i do watch football sometimes due to anxiety of the chase, but most of the times, its the players that catches my eyes. again, i'm a girl, sue me :P

the world cup qualifying match between malaysia and singapore has ended, and yeah, malaysia lost by 2 points. that's a well known fact. personally, i think our defence team should have been more alert and effective, that those boys should have marked who to follow and defend, so that the opponent won't be able to get into the box so easily. i admit i almost cursed whenever the opponent got one-on-one with that one handsome-bergaya-sepet-charismatic-skillful #khairulfahmi, and whenever he saves the ball, i shouted with joy. i honestly, he is one of the best goalkeeper a team can have, but reality is, football requires hard works of the teammates, not individual skills. be it a one-on-one moment like the penalty, #khairulfahmi would be able to amaze the world with his skills. i actually hoped for that, i had hoped that the tigers can score more, or the same points, so that they can have that penalty thingy at the end of the game. safee sali would have been great, and amirulhadi would have been marvellous. sadly shahrul didn't play that night. things would have been different.

i don't talk about football a lot. in fact, i don't even understand the ''offside'' concept- i always bug the guys to explain about it when they are watching a game. i got it at that point, but immediately forgets about it later, and will ask that same question each time i watch a football game. yes, i can be THAT annoying. but you can count on me to list the names of hot-looking footballers, yeah i can handle that ;) the truth is, i start to really take note on this game since imran and i got together, because he is a big fan of it. you can't say i didn't try syg ;)

back to my point, it doesn't take an expert to see that our defence was a little off, and it doesn't take an adult to realise that the lions played unprofessionally! it was as though the lions just tried to kill time by falling, and that must of course put pressure to our tigers. the tigers played honestly, and the lions won't go far with that attitude, mark my words. so, in conclusions, our lions roar better than lions, and the lions can only meow aimlessly.

i'm proud of them boys :)

aauuummm!!

p/s: the hitam kuning song won't get of my mind, idk why. haha.

merely a spectator,

everybody loves balloons

2011-07-28T10:18:00.003+08:00

To reach the ones we truly love, to be by their side, we need to show how much we care through various means. Sacrifices, gifts, compromise, romantic gestures, words, a look; are just some of the things we do for those we love. We've all made "balloons" for someone.

- David Choi

hey you, i always pray to have my tomorrows and the days after that with you. i love you.

yours truly,

i ought to know

2011-07-28T08:12:00.003+08:00

this dilemma i'm facing, its like no other. maybe they were right after all. i've been trying, but i don't want to be the only one. yesterday a friend actually posted a video to me, just because she thought i could learn something from it. i did. i cried. not because its not a really a sad video, but because what happened to that video has something related to whats happening to me. the stages. oh they were so clear. the arguments. they were so true. its like i can imagine myself being in that girl's situation. the only difference being, she was a very confident, brave and determined person. i am not like her. not yet. deep inside i realised something. i did. but i'm too scared to take the next step. or. i don't want to feel the hurt again. i don't know. maybe i'm just a coward. i've never been this insecure before this. not that i remember.

i talked this out. i got their opinions. but deep inside i know what i want, i know what i can do. and at the moment, i'm not ready to take any step. if you think i'm being stupid, then stupid i am. it was so unacceptable. so rude. so immature. and its as though i'm not important. not anymore, at least. i realise all that too well, too clear by now. as though i'm good for nothing. as though i've never done anything right.

p/s:

yasmin taknak bercakap mcm org takda pegangan. i know prayers is all it takes. i believe prayers can do magic. and i know Allah has something in store for me.

i need strength,

me.

spread the message

2011-07-27T11:33:00.002+08:00

Dear Smokers, please get a plastic bag and cover yourself whenever you want to start smoking to enable you to enjoy the smoke 100% by yourself. I don't want any percentage of it nor do my friends who don't smoke. Don't kill me if you want to kill yourself. Copy and spread this message to support the keep-smoke-away Campaign.

found this on the net, guess its wise to share it here :) see more at wongfuproductions.com :)

chal see? :)

2011-07-22T22:54:00.008+08:00

in case you guys are wondering, 'chal see' means lets see. its hindi and english btw ;)

so i guess it ended. oh maybe i forgot to update you guys on this, i decided to surprise my imran with something he loves- chelsea. by that, i mean i got him 2 chelsea-malaysia match tickets, plus a chelsea jersey :) nothing much, just because i thought he would love it. a dear friend, mr kang zarul irwan, a chelsea fan himself, got the tixs for me, as its all sold out in kuantan. i bought him two tickets just in case he wants to go with his friend, but that night he received the parcel, he immediately asked me to come along with him. and hey, just so you know, that was my first football game at a stadium :D

training session

the game

i had to borrow kak iza's harimau malaya jersey ;) erm. i'm not much of a football fan, but i can tell that the game was erm. disappointing. for both teams. honestly, both teams should have played better.

yeah, i guess at the end of the day its not really about the game but the time that imran and i spent together, going through the massive traffic in front of the stadium, walked quite far because we parked quite far, the feeling i had back then with so many people around i thought i might just faint if not for imran's strong grip of my hand, he didn't let go even once. walking through a flood of humans with loud noise playing in the background, the trouble to search for seats in the middle of so many souls in the stadium, and finally sitting calmly catching our breaths as we shared a melted orange cadbury zip :) so, yeah, its all worth it :)

muhammad imran, i hope you had fun, because i did :)

p/s:

if only i have piper's powers, i would freeze the time to see if the ball really got into the goal. coz i saw that it should be a safe. and him, he told me that tak boleh appeal, once the referee says in, its in. and that hitam kuning song, its stuck in my head.

yours,

yasmin

the power of words

2011-07-16T22:29:00.005+08:00

currently i am 978.27 kilometres away from the boyf. i am in kuching, sarawak and he is safe at home in petaling jaya, selangor. and i can't wait to see him soon, its been too long. 23 days is a long time, excuse me for being too spoiled.

dear love,

the last time we see each other, i thought it would last for a month. i was wrong.

the last time we talked on the phone, i thought it would last for a week. i was wrong.

the last time we texted, i thought it would last for a day. i was wrong.

what are words,

if you don't mean them

when you say them

what are words

if they're only for good times

then they don't

there's a reason why i wrote those words here, love. and i know you would understand, just because you know me too well already to not feel what i feel. as you said, when i got all emotional, you will get all emotional too. and words, they can be very powerful- it can inflict pain, and it can also remedy pain.

happy 21 months my imran

p/s:

if you must know,i waited until midnight. and no, i won't accept that same old reason. it has been this long, you should have learnt something.

love,

yasmin

i wish i had not done it

2011-07-12T20:34:00.009+08:00

today, i had this sudden feeling of running through my emails. i don't know why. but that's what i did. i started from the earliest email i that i got. and i smiled. slowly, that smile turned into a straight face, and next, i realised mata dah start berkaca. 2007. a year that i will never forget. no matter how wonderful my present days has been, with imran and all, i just can't let go of that one particular memory. too hard to swallow, i did anyway. too hard to let go, i tried anyway. in my mind, this thought kept playing- would it be different now? and i can't answer that question. another thing that came accross me was, how funny life can be. its like between a line, on day you might be standing at the bright side, and the next moment you already fall to the dark area. funny indeed. well, i didn't delete all those emails, just so i would remember every single thing that those people did, so that i would be thankful that the almighty had shown me earlier, what might happen in future. call me bad, but i still fail to respect those people who didn't respect me. i tried to forgive and forget. i did try. but until now i have not succeeded in my trials.

p/s: i hate it when i'm having period and feel like eating everything that i saw on telly. food porn. blurgh. can't believe i actually used that 'p' word.

reminiscing,

tell me what makes a man

2011-07-11T11:01:00.005+08:00

tell me what makes a man. i mean, what really makes a man? is it the way he treats you, or is it the amount of cash that he splashes away just for you? naah, that's a little too narrow don't you think so? well, let me tell you how i define a real man.

when i sulk or come out from my room with a sad face, immediately my mum would know i am sulking with imran. if i am extra happy, jumping with joy, singing while ironing, she immediately knows its imran that makes me really happy. i guess its a mother's thing ya know, to detect the differences that happens to her children who have someone else in the soft spot in the heart, besides the biological ones. abang not excluded. i must say, my siblings, we don't hide our feelings well. but my mum, she knows her children well. and she is our best friend, and i truly mean it :)

at random times, my mother would say this. a woman would always seek the attention of her man, that's just natural. at the early stage of the relationship, the girl seeks for her guy's attention, and has to fight with his friends. when they get married, she fights with his family and friends. when they have kids, she has to fight with his family, their children and his friends. all those dissatisfactions and tears, just to get his attention. somehow the battle will get tougher, as that very creation of god is somehow not sensitive enough to realise that his woman needs his attention no matter what. yes, that's just natural- for both of them. so when one complains, the other should listen. that's the beauty of love between a man and a woman. i couldn't agree more.

in my life, i am grateful and i feel blessed that i grow up in a family that is very much happy and harmony. so i get to see my papa as an example of what a man should portray. the most important criteria, a man should portray what a man should be like. sounds complicated, but really, its not hard to understand. i would like to share my experience, having a great man to be my father- because it actually teaches me on how to define a man. papa never neglects his children, never not come home even for one day, if he is not caught up with work outstation. and mama, will wait for him until he comes home no matter how late it is. now it gets easy for her as she now plays the sims 3 on our laptops, to kill time and stay awake. cute, no? :)

i remember when i was little, my sister and i would sleep in my parents room, just because we are scared to sleep in our room, so we will sleep on the floor. i never heard a 'no' from him everytime we get all spoiled, not even once. and the best part is, he would let down one hand to us, so that we can hold it until we fall asleep :) i guess its just our thing, now nina has that habit of holding hands while sleeping. he knows his girls well, i must say.

all my life, i've never ever heard papa raise his voice to any of his children. never. he approached us with patience. when something goes wrong, he discussed it. this is indeed a really good way, so we are not scared of him, but we respect him. on top of all, we never hear our parents argue. alhamdulillah, that makes us what we are today. he wakes up early every morning, as he always reminds us that, kalau bangun tengahari, mcm mana rezeki nak masuk? so we actually carry this discipline until now, and i hope until forever. ok fine, i admit, sometimes terlajak jugak but itu kadang2 je.. ;)

another thing that papa always do would be, he would check up on his girls when we go to bed. this always happens when he came home late at night and assumes that his girls are already sound asleep. well, anis and i are still awake sometimes, but we had to pretend to be asleep, just to play along so that his efforts to be all sweet and loving will not be wasted ;) in fact, yesterday, he came home at about 2am, and when i heard his voice, i pretended to sleep, and as expected, he came straight to our room, pull the door a little bit so that only some light would go in, and he looked at us three on the bed, for some odd seconds. yes, this has not changed, even now when i'm 22 and anis, 21 :)

so readers, i guess this would be some criterias that your wise minds can think of on how a man should be, no? not gonna list down one by one, because i believe when we think, we remember more.

suddenly an tv advertisement came to my mind.

"lelaki, dia tak sempurna. tapi sebab tu saya sayang dia"

i guess, behind that imperfection, there's an amount of effort that a guy actually makes, to make it less imperfect :)

p/s: i miss my imran.

yours truly,

yasmin mohamad

do you?

2011-07-10T09:12:00.002+08:00

its not like you don't know what you got yourself into

smokers, come see this.

2011-06-26T20:09:00.018+08:00

for a while, i have been wanting to write about this, but it remained as a want. maybe because i had not been this driven to express my worries and concerns about this, because i believe that everybody that can think well would know that smoking is really bad for your health, and for the health of everybody around him, that is exposed to the smoke he exhales. i admit that i have problems with insensitive smokers. to me, you don't simply puff your poison to other ppl's faces and be proud of it, and no, smokers, you don't look cool at all. you look stupid. i'm sorry again, i don't mean to finger point to the males only, as the ugly truth is that, smoking has been a trend to women as well.

last week i was in kuala lumpur to settle some stuffs, and when i met my boyf in the library to tell him that i'm done with my works and i'm ready to go out, he showed me a picture that he discovered from the web. its regarding smokers. he was quite disturbed by the picture, and his worries actually showed on his face for quite a while. alhamdulillah, i had always wanted him to stop smoking for good, i know its not easy, and i also know that he is trying as hard as he could. he promise me that, and i know he will keep his promise to me. just because he keeps his promises towards me.

that instant, i got this idea to write about this issue. no, i'm not gonna list down the disadvantages of smoking, i'm not gonna write on how to stop smoking, i'm not gonna argue about whatever right issues that may come up when smoking is discussed. sorry, no. i'm not gonna do that. its too boring, and google can tell you all that. just google it up and you'll find your answers in just a click away.

but let me tell you what i'm going to write about. i'm gonna show you the picture that imran showed me, that can be very interesting and can make you smokers, realise more about this bad habit. lets take a look, shall we?

as you can see, this ad is not like the usual stop smoking ad that contains unpleasant images. this is something else. it took me 2 or 3 seconds to work it out. what a great idea, to have a smoking room as an open grave with the priest above officiating at the funeral, with the grieving friends and relatives standing around?

it reminded me of those articles i came across not too long ago, on baroque churches whose trompe-l'oeil ceilings depict God in his majesty above, surrounded by angels, supervising the admission of the saved into eternal life, and the condemnation of the damned into the maws of hell below.

this to me was an image to play with. how awful it is to actually be a smoker. i wasn't sure that the two smokers should have been standing up though. as far as i know, the dead lie down in their graves rather than stand upright smoking cigarettes, don't they? wouldn't it have been better to have a smoker lying in bed, smoking a cigarette, and falling into a sleep that would become eternal? maybe this image should include the ceiling to be filled into a cloud of smoke being exhaled from the mouth of the smoker on the right, like some sort of cloud, or some sort of dream. and they could have put absolutely anything in the grave below the priest and relatives. it could have been a man drinking a pint of beer. or two people having sex. or somebody reading a book or a newspaper. you could put that priest and those friends and relatives above anything you wanted. but no, this ad actually pointed on smokers. and oh hell yes, you should already feel something in your stomach now, scared maybe?

i know, i know that its not easy, but it all comes back to the will power. if you are strong enough to try it in the first place, then you should be strong enough to stop doing it now. i believe everybody can think wise, not only for yourself, but for others as well :)

p/s:

wahai perokok2 sekalian, try this. awak pegi duduk dalam kebuk asap, pastu merokok la sampai mabuk. senang cite. awak boleh merokok dgn aman tak ganggu org, dan awak jugak boleh hisap balik asap dari rokok awak tu. lagi banyak asap, lagi cepat high kan? lagi efektif. -out-

yours truly,

yasmin

back at square one

2011-06-25T02:23:00.005+08:00

i love your confidence. i just love it. but sometimes, that same confidence actually drives you to be too self righteous and too proud to accept my explainations. alright let's not blame you, love. let me be more general. dear readers, maybe you'll think that i'm being gender bias, but even if you don't agree with me, hear me on this first and then you can decide whether i'm being bias or not. this thing i mentioned above, maybe that's what a guy..oh wait. maybe that's what all guys are naturally good at. alright. after this sentence, 'I/MY' would refer to girls and 'YOU' would refer to guys. guys tend to be too firm, up to a point where my feelings might just be put at the very edge at the corner, so that i myself would have to realise that its time to put my feelings aside and take yours into consideration. and no matter how many times i repeat myself with the hope that you'll actually accept the logic behind my doings, you will still stand firm and let me down. its like a psychotic mantra in guy's heads you know, that "yeah-its-ok-no-matter-what-she-says-i-won't-fall-for-it" kinda promise, to make sure he is not as hurt and so that the girl will somehow give in, no matter how ridiculous his points were. yeah, maybe that's what a guy is naturally born with. and us, girls, we have that natural ability to be too empathy, and to put our feelings aside just to make sure the guy's ego wins. everytime. yes, we girls are meant to do that. denying this means you're too afraid to accept that weakness in yourself. but, we give in not because we are too stupid, not because we are too weak, not because we are always wrong. its just because we know how to give in and not bring it up again later, unlike guys.

p/s: ask yourself, how is that even fair?

When a woman is silent, she's either over thinking, tired of waiting, falling apart, crying inside, or all of the above - The Notebook

give me strength,

if i have to choose

2011-06-18T11:12:00.011+08:00

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be forever I know

Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true

Seth Tan, well known from the episodes of Nora Elena, is well played by Aaron Aziz. *cuma i don't quite get it kenapa nama dia mcm dekat2 dgn nama 'setan' pergh sedih gile nama setan kan haha. Honestly, perempuan mana yang taknak lelaki sempurna, lelaki yang handsome, bergaya, kaya, romantik, setia, sabar, nakal, sexy, charming.. (and the list goes on) like Seth Tan. Well to me, Aaron Aziz may have all the criterias to play that role, but again, its just another fairytale character created by the writer of that story. However, his character is not all that good. for those who actually reads the novel, or watch the full episodes, you guys know what i mean. and i can't help to think that somehow, his angelic character was actually due to his guilt towards the girl. idk. you might have a different view. anyway. i have to admit here that i don't read that novel, and i don't follow that episode. i just got to know about this Seth guy from kak iza who reads the novel, from my sister anis who follows the episodes, and from the status updates from facebook and twitter. haha. but, i watched the last episode though :D and from the bottom of my heart, i too think that Seth Tan is the only man on earth (up till this moment i write this post) that can say "SIAL" in the most sexy way possible. haha :D

another perfect man character was played by Syed Hussein, the character of Adam of Adamaya :) i'm a sucker for that series, and i went through the hard work to download the series, complete! yeay to me! :) and seriously, i'm in love with that Adam! oh my oh my Adam, i had that imagination crush on him for quite sometime you know? :P he is potrayed as a really good looking man, or should i say perfect looking man, who loves photography, penyabar, romantik, tegas, very close to his religion, terlalu cintakan the wife, seorg ayah yg sgt2 baik, produces a cute daughter (LOL) and very moderate. he never laid hands on his wife, and sabar je dengan ape yg the wife buat to him, tak paksa her for anything, and he really knows how to handle the other guy that exists in his wife's life, dengan penuh berhemat and tak panas baran. personally, i find guys really respectful if dia tak naikkan suara to any woman, and i really respect guys yang don't exploit woman. well, its open to interpretations, of course. you know what i mean, don;t you, dear loyal readers? oh oh oh Adam writes a novel for his wife, too!! oh my oh my how sexier can a man be? you might think i'm weird, but i find the guys who writes, sexier than guys who sings. pelik kan? but yeah ;) sampai lah at last his wife slowly fall for him :) Adamaya is the best malay series i have ever watched so far :) i would love to name my child Adam hehu ok bye. i might be bias though, as i think Syed Hussein tu comel sangat boleh tak! :)

a story may remain and remembered as a story, but the reality is what actually counts. and in reality, how perfect we might want our man to me, these kind of guys don't exist, so does a perfect woman. well, imperfection is what makes people perfect, isn't it? that god has created humans in pairs, to complete each other in the hard, but the most beautiful way possible :) and i believe, jodoh itu ketentuan Allah :)

so if i were to be asked, who would i choose between Seth Tan and Adam, i would, without doubt, choose Muhammad Imran bin Khairi Osman ;) *hehe ok itu gedik. thank you for reading anyway, peeps, stay in touch. muahs! :)

p/s: how gedik i may sound, i sure meant every word i typed out.

lots of love,

yasmin mohd

you one confused male homosapien

2011-06-16T21:42:00.009+08:00

to me, this is how an ironic, confused man talks.

:::you call that sarcasm???bahahaha...nice try buy ya, try harder:::

‎:::how is it even possible to try to sound sarcastic anyway.bye:::

*note: these were said by the same person

if you're reading this, i think you have a really sharp tongue, and tonight, you annoy me big time. what really bothers me is that, we are not really talking in real life. fish.

you, one confused man. there goes my day. period.

the happee twentee

2011-06-16T20:32:00.004+08:00

this post is written to mark the 20th month imran and i have been together. and currently i am in kuantan and imran is in petaling jaya. still jauh. throughout these 1 year and 8 months, this guy has been such a sweetheart. and day by day, we know how to deal with conflicts, better. not that we fight a lot mind you, (LOL) but everytime we do argue, we just know how both of us would react, and we manage to control our anger and make up again not too long later after that. this is an accomplishment for me :) but hey, its always good to keep away from arguments right :)

i came back from work quite late yesterday, and all of a sudden my body felt really tired and the moment i laid my head on the pillow, i immediately dozed off. so no dinner, no late night tv, no tweeting, no facebook , no late night call, and no goodnight text message. how passive. that's what happens when i'm tired. the youngest sister and the youngest brother tried to wake me up but i didn't move even one bit. a dead sleeper i was. *haha ade ke phrase mcm tu :P

but guess what. when i woke up today and checked my phone, there were a few messages and missed calls, and among the early messages that i rceived was from him. at 3.07am :) a monthliversary wish. and with him, that's not common. i mean, the part of being all mushy is well played by ME all this while, so his actions actually made me feel a little touched, and it was a good start for my friday :)

well, things do evolve, don't they? and i do pray that the changes that we both are going through will make us a better person, and i hope that we will change for the better :) sayang, hold my hand and we'll walk together alright? :)

HAPPY 20th MONTHLIVERSARY MY IMRAN

i LOVE you to the moon and forth :D

love,

princess yasmin

buddy love

2011-06-15T17:01:00.022+08:00

hey peeps. as i had shared in my facebook, my good friend nadia and her other friends had come out with the idea of having a mini bazaar at nadia's home. well, when she said mini bazaar, i thought it would be just some tables and displays of stuffs, but no dear readers, no. her team managed to provide 11 booths and there were so many stuffs! no, you cant imagine how happening the bazaar was. for those who attended, a big thank you for helping out my friends out, it was a good experience for me too :)

well, this kind of garage sale, is not really famous yet in kuantan, unlike in kl where the people can still have preferences for preloved items, as long as the stuffs are still in a good condition. i myself have no problems to get one of the preloved items, especially when you can get a branded bag for half price- that too, still in a good condition :) so the idea of setting up a bazaar is really inspiring, and i'm gonna make sure that i join them next time around.

as for me, i decided to help her around, as i'm not working on sundays, and i had always hoped for a productive sunday, not the typical lazy sunday where i wake up late, wash my face, brush my teeth, and be a potato couch, or simply sit in front of the computer to play the sims. haha. that's why i decided to be at nadia's crib since morning until we finish cleaning up. after all, its a bestie i was helping out :) so. the night before, i baked some cupcakes, just as a complimentary gift to anyone who purchase items from nadia's booth. so much of a marketing strategy, huh? ;) and for those who knows me well, i love to bake. and i don't sell t hem. i just find the satisfaction when people anjoy my bakings and yeah, i love to feed people with good stuffs *ececey :)

the pictures from the bazaar can be found in my facebook account as i was tagged in a few pictures. oh did i mention, during that bazzar i met a lot of my highschool friends, and i made new friends, too. those who actually lives in tok sira but i've nvr met them before. and oh my oh my its really a small world. and i'd love to think and keep it that way. my kuantan peeps are a family, almost everyone knows everybody and that's really nice coz we can bond instantly. just like that. and no, i'm not kidding.

this little cutie welcomed us at the house gate :)

hye. my name is alice, and i like to eat apple.

would you like to adopt me? :)

p/s: i wonder if rabbits love hotdogs. immy? ;)

nana, mazzie, anna

anna and her capik

askar ;) abg fairul membaiki pagar :)

these are the pictures of the booths :)

now you wish you had come, no? hehe..

and last but not least,

since 13 and still counting :)

yours truly,

the perfect maiden

2011-06-14T10:04:00.006+08:00

i'm not your random girl. seriously, i'm not. so many things i chose to show but there are so much more that i keep to myself, and only those who are really close to me would have the ability to dig that out.

currently, i'm learning how to play a game. boys' game. but oh almighty, i'm still a girl no matter what games i play. honestly, i'm a sucker for games such as the sims -oh i can sit in front of the computer and play it like nobody's business and cry when my sim dies, believe me i may be affected big time. however, i do play red alert and get all tensed up when the enemy attacks but proudly i must say, i am kinda good at it hehe. wait, i know i'm really good at it! *ok close this page if you think i'm too much to handle :P

after bugging my boyfriend with a lot of (annoying) questions, at last he agreed to install this one game to my laptop. D.O.T.A. ok i know, its a really well known game for guys but i don't know a thing about this game until the day imran actually showed it to me. all i say at that moment was, "iisssh kenape smua character dia hodoh2? i don't want to play lah!" but after it was installed into my laptop, i figured out there are 3 pretty female heroes, so since then i only use those heroes. among the three, my favourite would be the crystal maiden :)

The Crystal Maiden is a powerful disabler and support spellcaster. Each of her offensive spells impairs the target in some way, making her a valuable addition to any lineup. Crystal Nova allows her to blast multiple enemies with chilling damage, and Frostbite completely stops a single target enemy from moving for several seconds. Freezing Field causes immense damage and slows everything in a large area around Rylai, but her natural fragility makes it a difficult spell to use to its full effect. Despite the usefulness of all of her spells to her allies, perhaps her greatest asset to her team is Brilliance Aura. This aura gives all allies across the map a significant boost to their mana regeneration, giving them plenty of energy to use their own spells no matter where they are. Although she tends to take on a supportive role, the Crystal Maiden is still one of the most valuable heroes for any team.

http://www.playdota.com/heroes/crystal-maiden

i chose her because she is the prettiest among all. sorry guys, i'm not even close to be a worthy opponent. ade saye kisah? haha! anyway. this game requires us to go and but stuffs at the virtual shops so that our hero becomes stronger. there's one accessories shop, and there's an accessory called 'the circlet of nobility'. the description of it is, the circlet is made for human princesses. the moment i saw the word princess, i bought two of them. imran who was 'tutoring' had that straight face and he was speechless when i told him the reasons i had to buy two of them :D and all imran can say was, "bee, awk merosakkan game lelaki lah. i think you should stick to the sims" again, i don't care :P but he was so sabar with me, teaching me to at least buy the correct stuffs and the ways to play the game :)

the same thing happened to maell when i told him i'm into dota nowadays. and we actually talked about it during lunch! he said to me that that was the first time he ever talked about dota with a friend who is a girl. i just fail to understand whether it was a compliment or the other way round :P and maell, too, taught me what to but and what not to buy. hehe.

i may be new at this, but i'm a fast learner. ask imran ;)

till another post,

princess yasmin

i'm just like you

2011-06-09T11:07:00.010+08:00

just like you, i don't like rude people. so, please don't be rude.

just like you, i don't like waiting. so, please don't make me wait.

just like you, i don't like liars. so, please don't lie to me.

just like you, i need attention. so, please be attentive towards me.

just like you, i have expectations. so, please don't complain when i question yours.

just like you, i don't like to be ignored. so, please don't ignore me.

just like you, i don't like to be angry. so, please don't give me reasons to be angry.

just like you, i don't like to be treated with injustice. so, please don't mistreat me.

just like you, i don't like it when people don't reply texts. so, please have some conscience.

just like you, i don't like it when people don't keep their promises. so, please keep your promises.

just like you, i want to be respected. so, please have some respect towards me.

just like you, i need time to recover. so, please give me space.

just like you, i hate it when people don't remember important dates. so, please remember.

just like you, i hate it when people talk bad about my family. so, please don't do that to me.

just like you, i need to be reminded. so, please remind me.

just like you, i want to be loved unconditionally. so, please love me as i am.

see, i'm not so hard to please, you know? because i'm just like you.

love,

noor yasmin

i will keep you close, no matter how far i go

2011-06-07T16:04:00.008+08:00

well, just to share what me & my wonderful peeps had filled our free time with :)

has any of you dear loyal readers, heard anyone said that childhood friends are the ones that will always be attached to us forever, through thick and thin? literally- through your skinny days to your curvy days, and back to being all slim? eceyh :D lol. i've heard of that. and yes, i live by that belief. as cliche as it sounds, these people has always been the people i grow(notice the present tense) up with, i laugh and cry with, we smack each other's back so hard that later after that incident we're not friends for a few hours but at night we still talk on the housephone asking about homeworks and blabber about how tired our minds are, stucked up with all those chemistry and addmath equations, and the next day we still share that peanut butter sandwich and whatever can be found in our lunchbox. and until now, they might not be the person i text everyday, they might not be the person i see everyday, but still in this humble heart, their face is permanent, immovable. that is the definition of childhood friend, based on my personal dictionary.

one fine day, i followed my boss *ehem ehem dad, to kemaman, the place he grew up. as we walked down the stairs from the office, suddenly a man of his age came to his and gave a good smack on his shoulder. he looked. erm. pelik. to me lah. he looked at me and said, 'anok mung ke, mat?' but then my dad reply, 'dok ah, girlfriend baru'. that other old man bought that, but everytime he looked at me, he had that confused-mat kau tipu aku ke ni oyy-blurred face. and haha at last i admitted that i am encik mat's daughter. those old men had coffee, and before we left, something caught my eyes. papa actually gave him something. in decent phrase, a token of appreciation. being a busybody i am, i asked, why did papa gave him some money. who was that man?

''he is my childhood friend. kaki pukul tu, dulu masa kecik2 kitorang pusing kemaman. dia taiko kat kemaman ni. kaki pukul. very good man. org2 mcm ni noor yasmin, senang kite nak mintak tolong. kwn dari kecik. they don't ask for anything in return, no questions asked whenever kite mintak tlg. ape salahnye kasi duit sikit, bukan selalu pun.. kite senang sikit, tolong la dia. org2 mcm ni yg kite nak buat kwn sampai mati."

i was speechless. not because i wonder how a kaki pukul can be a good man, (LOL) but how papa's response made me realise that friendship is indeed important, how its really wise to keep those worthy people close to heart, how those people can make us humble when we talk to them. and my papa, that's why he's my most favourite man in this whole wide world. he doesn't speak much, but he speaks wisely. he doesn't need to prove much, but his actions proves everything.

at that moment, being dramatic as i am, i started to think of the people that had accepted me through my best and worst days, who had been so honest in shaping me, and alhamdulillah, i see those images clearly. those people, who i know will never hesitate to have my back even when i fall so hard on the ground, so badly. who will lift me up no matter how hard it will be to convince me that i can do it. you, you, you. you know who you are :)

i am proud to have all those wonderful people around me, at times where i laugh so loud but they won't be embarrased by it, when i almost make them deaf when i sing hindi songs continuously in the car where they have every right to tell me to shut up, and when i talk non-stop, they will just listen because they know when i get tired, i'll shut up automatically, and then they will start to tease me on being so quiet. haha.

this post is dedicated to- all those wonderful souls, who has always been with me, during my days when my set of teeth were not perfect, until my oh forever hard braceface days, until now the day i can smile so wide and feel good about it, and hopefully until the day we all will feel there's a need to put on a fake set of teeth ;p i love you to bits. may Allah bless you :)

loveness,

min

and i quote

2011-06-02T23:32:00.004+08:00

"FAILURE should be our teacher, not our undertaker. FAILURE is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. FAILURE is something we can avoid only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing." - Muhammad Imran bin Khairi Osman

p/s:

sometimes i wonder how you can be so strong. you ease my heart even when you are deeply hurt inside. you say the right things even when you are not sure if its right in the first place. you hugged me close when you were the one who needed a hug so badly. you hear me cry almost everyday recently, but you still hold me tight until i let go. you listened to my cries, you make me cry louder just so i would let it all out and not keep in alone to myself. you wipe my tears eventhough they keep running down my cheeks anyway. you gave me strength. you told me i'm strong to face all this, without fail. that's imran. my imran.

i love you so much imran, i thank the Almighty everyday for having you, for giving you to me. and i'm proud to say you are mine, you one strong soul. forever, insyAallah. tq for everything baby :')

yours,

yasmin

the time phase

2011-05-23T10:43:00.006+08:00

during school days:

min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : take yourself, on the table in my room.

min : thank you papa.

university level:

min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : dah masuk duit in your ambank account.

min : yeay! thanks papa.

during attachment:

min : papa, min takde duit.

papa : pegi withdraw.

min : okay papa (-.-'')

*please note that my sentence had always been the same since school days. saya yang tak berubah atau pun papa yg pandai mengelak sekarang? adoi.

p/s : betul lah, zaman sekolah adalah zaman paling best. heh. how fast time flies kan? :)

love,

yasmin mohd

stranger

2011-05-22T09:26:00.008+08:00

okay i get it. you first saw me at the camp about 4 years ago. i know that you were the one among others that left chocolates on my dining table then, almost every week without fail. so my friends and i talked about boys, including you. so you have good looks. and yeah until now i still think that you have good looks. i know you asked my friends about me, and you even secretly peeked into the guys' memorial book so that you can know more about me. we were 18. i understand how it felt back then, we were all placed under one roof and of course, at that age, crush happens. and popularity was not something that i expected throughout that 3 months (or less). nevertheless, thank you. and i know, you know that i treated everyone equally at that time, and my goal was to go through those 3 months, be back home and spend the money that was deposited. i have no problem with you then.

lets see whats the problem, shall we?

you tried to approach me by giving all those chocolates, but you never make an effort to approach me face-to-face. and after a while, you freaked me out. we were not friends. we were never friends. later, you asked for my number from my friends, which i told them not to give. that freaked me out. i don't know you. i never knew you. after a while, i never heard about you, not anymore.

suddenly out of the blue, you requested to be friends on facebook. let me make this clear. i don't approve you not because i don't like you at all, its because i don't know you, plus the fact that you freaked me out the first time. and i don't approve the people that i don't know. facebook is too personal, that i don't find it wise to share all my pictures and my personal life with somebody who is a stranger. that's why i don't approve your friend request, if you still wonder.

when i ignored your request, i thought everything is fine already. its a clear message you see, when someone don't want to be friends with you. but, no. instead you fb messaged my boyfriend and acted all nice. told him that you saw me here and there, just like a stalker. i read all the messages, and you are wrong when you think my boyfriend would be secretive about this. he doesn't keep secrets from me. until now we still fail to understand why would someone do anything like that. after 4 years, you still freak me out!

i blocked you from my fb. but somehow you managed to track down my blog and started to leave comments which are in no relation to my post. oh boy, you just don't understand, do you? using those freaky names. tell you what, i'm not gonna delete any of your comments, as i want you to read them back after you read this post, so that you realise how freaky and irrational you were. and for your information, don't think by doing all that you'll seem important to me, because you are insignificant to me. ok lets be honest. a girl may think you're sweet, pursuing her even after 3 years, but thats it. let me repeat, after a while, you freak me out.

i don't know how to make this clearer and i hope the words i used are simple enough for you, and i sure hope that you are smart enough to get this message in your thick skull. maybe, just maybe, i thought i should let you message me on fb, but after what you commented, i guess its a big no no. if you have realised and you are sorry, maybe we can be friends. and fyi, my boyfriend might seem like he doesn't care, thats because he knows that you are nobody to me. so please, have some respect towards him.

-yasmin-

i'm attached - week 1

2011-05-21T01:09:00.007+08:00

my attachment program has finally started. its true what they say, life goes on without us realising it, it waits not a nanosecond later. when i first stepped into my third year of law school, i thought everything was unsatisfactory. the subjects were hard, we had 2 hours of afternoon lectures, 24 hours a day is not enough, project paper was freakingly annoying, exams can't be much of a help, and now, i move to the next phase of life. attachment/practical. i'm not complaining, but wouldn't it be nice if things can pause for a second, let me catch a breath and resume in a slower mode? my friends would agree as much too, i would love to bet on that.

anyway. i'm thankful that i come from a family with legal backgrounds. as much as i wanted to do my attachment with my friends in KL, i had to agree to papa's demand that i do it back home. closer to the family, less costs, and he promised that i will learn so many things, things that some of my friends won't learn during attachment. i remember i even had a small fight with that love of mine, as he thought that 4 months away from each other would be so hard for both of us- he would want to fetch me from work LOL :P i hold papa's and abg's promises and i started my attachment with a heart full of hope. hope to learn as much as i can :)

i occupied my first week in papa's firm in kemaman. oh did i mention, abg is my supervisor? i got my own table, with my own pc. my own space. i consider myself lucky, because i get to ask so many things and be as annoying as i can but still be entertained by him, and being THE yasmin, i always ask so many things. i follow him everywhere. to the court, to do file search, the attitudes of lawyers, getting to know the court clarks, the procedures bla bla bla. so many things. i asked for it, he's so much happy to teach. that's my only big brother, my sweet but sarcastic, crazy, annoying big brother :)

well, my papa a.k.a THE BIG BOSS, he is more concerned about my knowledge. he would call me into his office, bulk me with thick books, and demand for the summary of the book at the end of the day. he gave free lectures on contract and land, and i thought if only he was my land lecturer back when i was in my 2nd year, i wouldn't have hated land as much as i do now. haha. its a good start though. papa would teach me about conveyancing, and abang would teach me about litigation. the first day at work, when papa gave me land books to read, i told him how much i hated land and i'm more into criminal. since then, i see that he tries to make me realise that land is not that bad, and i bought his opinions :)

i'll update on my attachment weekly :) so for the upcoming 5 weeks, i'll be doing my attachment in kuantan and kemaman, alternate weeks. just so i'll be more exposed to both firms, both working environment,s staffs and cases. insyaallah i'll be strong. deep inside, i envy my dear friends for having the opportunity to do their attachment together, go to courts and eye handsome lawyers :p and go for operations with the police. seriously, it could have been me. but again, i'm grateful for what has been decided for me, and i believe, at the end of the day, friends would be the ones to turn to when we practice soon :) so, different experiences from different people would make everything merrier and beyond reach, wouldn't it? :)

happy attachment, dear friends :) miss all of you already! :)

akta ini sgt menarik. ka-ching wise! ;P

my big boss, my handsome old man, he does his own xeroxing :)

my first task. papa used this during his law school years.

and last but not least,

found this in papa's office. it reads, ''sue the bastards!'' ;P

xo,

yasmin mohd

in his absence, i grow stronger

2011-05-21T00:02:00.007+08:00

its been two days since imran and the others left for Gunung Tahan. we didn't have a proper goodbye call, it was really late when they departed from UM, and i guess he's occupied and overly excited by the trip, so yeah. but he texted me though, telling me not to be sad whatsoever, and ended it with an 'i love you :)' which its magic will last for 4 days. he promised me that. i sure hope and pray that they are safe and will come back as scheduled, this sunday :)

as for me, thank goodness i'm doing my attachment now, and the work hours actually kept him off my mind for a while. but whenever the phone rings, whenever a text message comes in, my heart hopes that its him on the line. i guess the workloads can't keep him off my mind for too long, can it? no. i don't think so. but my patience is by day, getting thinner. i finally decided to restrain myself from the handphone, at least during the working hours.

its funny you see, i myself told him to off his phone, because the battery won't last for 4 days. the last time he went hiking, he gave me a call when he reaches the peak and he promised to do that this time too. of course, i don't want him to be distracted by the ringtones while climbing, because after all, his safety is what matters most to me. so its better for him to off his phone and focus on his adventurous activity.

i was at the office this morning when suddenly that familiar ringtone caught my attention. imran's name and face came up :) when i heard his voice on the line, that feeling of longing came back. he told me how tired he was, how fun the trip has been, how they had to sleep in the rain yesterday night, and how he misses me so much. my heart jumped with joy, and i know, he knows that i was really happy to hear his voice. he sounded really occupied. but he called me even for a while. he sounded very tired. but he tried to sound happy when he spoke to me. he sounded really excited. but he entertained my excitements. that one minute call, it made my day! now tell me readers, what could that be if its not love? :)

"ok lah, i got to go. i miss you baby"

his words literally made me smile the whole day. i came home for lunch and i told mama about his call. oh boy was i really happy :) they're scheduled to reach the peak soon, and i'll be waiting by the phone for his call, to hear his excited voice, and to be told that he's coming home soon! can't wait! yes, indeed absence makes the heart fonder :) and this heart, its stronger than yesterday, i believe it can handle this.

tembam ;)

p/s: rindu tu indah, kalau org yg dirindui tu merindui kita jugak, tahu? :) cepat balik sayang, saya tunggu awak :)

love,

yasmin

you're like your own sun ☼

2011-05-16T09:52:00.012+08:00

looks can be deceiving. there is no doubt on that. i remember the first time when imran and i actually talked, i had no idea that he was like that. erm. like 'that' is obviously not descriptive enough, but i just can't put my feelings into words to describe how i felt at that time. confused, maybe. the only thing that i can be sure of at that time- oh boy you look like hard work. i thought that he's too much to handle. and i'm sure, he had the same thought towards me too.

but who can actually tell that a person who might mean nothing to you one day, might mean everything to you the next day. i didn't foresee that. however, as cliche as it sounds, that is the feeling that i am happy of, that wonderful feeling of loving and being in love. yes, we are in love. believe it or not, between us both, we always talk about this at random times- and its a great feeling you know, knowing that the person you love actually remembers and holds on the sweet memories as much as you do.

of course, we want our love to stay as long as it can, as strong as it can, insyaallah. and hopes dear readers, do require hard work. in my previous monthliversary posts i had mentioned how 'distance' can be the word we hate most. but as you go through life, distance is something that you can't avoid in order to move on with life. we realise that, besides having each other to turn to and be all lovey-dovey to, we also have other relationships that need to be secured. the people who we grow up with, the people we play with, the people we do silly things with. we have our own separate lives, and the thing about love is, we have to accept and adapt with those people because they had existed in our significant half's life way earlier before this thing called love does. and we both are clear about this.

sometimes i just wish to have a boyfriend like edward cullen. protective. towards my safety as a whole, not merely of what i wear. that one guy who will hold me close when eyes around look at me. who will sooth me when i'm scared and vulnerable. who will never let go of my hand even when i say i don't want to be protected. who will pursue me when i walk away with anger. who will look in my eyes and explains everything without a sound. who is cold but has a heart full of undefined love.

but i'm happy with the self-proclaimed jacob black that i am deeply in love with now. the guy who has the warmth of a warewolf. who makes hard things come easy. who is rational in dealing with the insignificant guys who approaches me. who lets me stand on my own but always be there whenever i need him. who feels sad when i ever cry. who feels useless when i feel neglected. who spends time with his other warewolf brothers but still have me in his mind always. who acts cool with others but the complete opposite when he's wih me. who tells me secrets that he won't tell to others.

baby you're like your own sun. so warm, so significant and you make my days seem new each time we meet. and i'm gonna tell you how special you are to me everyday.

happy 19 months ❤

i love you

☺

p/s:

they say a princess and a warewolf can't be together.
lets' prove them all wrong, and make our own fairytale, shall we? :)

yours,

✿ yasmin ✿

fingers back to their routine exercise

2011-05-15T16:44:00.004+08:00

hye dear readers! :)

sorry to keep you guys wait for so long. and another sorry for not gonna write so much in this entry. just wanna let you guys know that my third year exams are over, and i'm currently back in kuantan for the long 4 months holiday- not exactly holiday as i'll be doing my attachment starting tmrw. hope everything's gonna be fine :) so many things to be poured out- soooo sooo many things but i'll write one at a time alright. so, i'll be online regularly, and insyallah i'll update my opened diary as frequent as i can (fingers crossed hoping this brain will be filled with creative issues to be blogged about) wishing you all a happy happy holiday :) loveness!

my life has been awesome. hows yours? :)

love,

yasmin mohd

that time of the year

2011-04-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

its that time of the year, again.
the one that makes me feel ignored, love. the one that makes me feel really neglected, love. the one that makes me feel dissatisfied with your periodical tactlessness, love. the one that forces me to be more patient, love. the one that i have to go through with that positive thought in mind that it will end soon, love. the one when we can't even meet just because an hour or two with me will take away your study time, love. the one when you know i'll pour it all out in this blog, love. indeed, love.
yasmin hates this time of the year because it takes imran away from her.
i guess the pain never really went away the last time.
yes i have my friends. i run home to my family. but they are not you, love.

you expect me to understand. i do. but you, you don't learn.

now, love, you are being such a huge distraction to me.

-me-

reality check

2011-04-22T19:20:00.000+08:00

the exam dates are as follows:-

28th april 2011 - equity & trust - aras 2

4th may 2011 - jurisprudence - aras 2

9th may 2011 - company - aras 1

12th may 2011 - PIL - aras 1

p/s: stress lah bile buat post mcm ni. well. maybe that's what i need. a little push from my inner self.

counting days,

me

when i meet the pilot

2011-04-22T18:54:00.000+08:00

i arrived home in the late afternoon, and since my mama is not feeling well, i don't have the heart to call her and make her drive to fetch me. thankfully, muizz is home. the last time we met was masa raya, and surely, there are a lot of catching ups tu be done, so we didn't waste any time. he fetched me, and we went for cendol and rojak :) talked. talked. talked. when the clock stiked 6pm, we went to get nina from school, and as expected, she was so happy and surprised to see me, and she got even more surprised when i walked her into muizz's car. talked. talked. talked. went to mcD to get ice-cream and he sent us home. its not the amount of hours spent, but the quality of the things shared. thank you mr.pilot :)

talking to you has always been easy.

maybe because you know me well.
maybe because you don't hesitate to tell me if i'm acting like an irrational spoilt brat.
maybe because you see my characteristics develop since high school.
maybe because you are mature enough and you know what i'm going through.
maybe because you know how to snap my thoughts and you teach me to grow up.
maybe because you make me realise all the things that you have made me realised.

indeed you are all these, my pilot friend- and i have always respected you no less :)

''manusia ni suka kalau org sygkan dia. sedangkan kucing pun perlu perhatian setiap hari, perlu diberi mkn setiap hari, perlu dibelai setiap hari, apatah lagi manusia"
(mu'izz, 2011)

-min-

it got me thinking

2011-04-21T13:08:00.000+08:00

civil procedure

criminal procedure

ethics

evidence

p/s: oh well i guess no matter what, we cannot deny that time passes. in a while my batch will be the ultimate senior.

yours truly,

yasmin mohd

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